...sorry, friend
to my friend,
i truly am sorry for how i acted towards you saturday night. i was being such an annoying girly girl, and you know i am not really girly at all. well ok let me just get it out there... i'm not pissed at you or upset at you, but i feel like i should be. not for anything you did or didnt do, but because i allowed for it to happen. i didnt think it would be a big deal, and in the grand scale of things, its not, but just to me... it really really is, and i have no one to talk to about it. i am happy it happened with you, because i know you are my friend and i can trust you, but on the other hand, you are my friend and i always thought i would have sex with someone i was in a relationship with. there is nothing you can do to change how i am feeling right now, and there is nothing you should do, like i said before, this has nothing to do with you. i am really sorry for how i was saturday. i was way too drunk, but i knew exactly what i was doing, i was treating you like shit, when i should have just let it be. i wanted some form of attention out of you, for whatever reason, and i know you would never be interested in me, and although that sucks being as i lost my virginity to you, i know its fine, because to be very honest i would never want to be in a relationship with you, other than a friendship. but see thats the logical side of me, the stupid fucked up side is a jealous bitch and cant stand that you dont like me. i am so messed up, and i am sorry. i cannot say how sorry i am. i know you were just looking out for me that night, different people told me you were, but i just wanted to be so angry at you. love-annie
i truly am sorry for how i acted towards you saturday night. i was being such an annoying girly girl, and you know i am not really girly at all. well ok let me just get it out there... i'm not pissed at you or upset at you, but i feel like i should be. not for anything you did or didnt do, but because i allowed for it to happen. i didnt think it would be a big deal, and in the grand scale of things, its not, but just to me... it really really is, and i have no one to talk to about it. i am happy it happened with you, because i know you are my friend and i can trust you, but on the other hand, you are my friend and i always thought i would have sex with someone i was in a relationship with. there is nothing you can do to change how i am feeling right now, and there is nothing you should do, like i said before, this has nothing to do with you. i am really sorry for how i was saturday. i was way too drunk, but i knew exactly what i was doing, i was treating you like shit, when i should have just let it be. i wanted some form of attention out of you, for whatever reason, and i know you would never be interested in me, and although that sucks being as i lost my virginity to you, i know its fine, because to be very honest i would never want to be in a relationship with you, other than a friendship. but see thats the logical side of me, the stupid fucked up side is a jealous bitch and cant stand that you dont like me. i am so messed up, and i am sorry. i cannot say how sorry i am. i know you were just looking out for me that night, different people told me you were, but i just wanted to be so angry at you. love-annie