if the excuse was, "i was really drunk," it probably wasn't worth it...
well well well... it finally happened. i kind of expected it too ya know? but still, it wasn't what i had hoped for all these years. V4L? not anymore. like its weird, i kinda feel like i let people down. people were always telling me how much they admire the fact i was still a virgin, and i liked that attention, but well not anymore. i dont know what im gonna do when im with all the friends again and someone brings up my virgin status... cuz its not like i can lie, but i cant say anything either, being as i had sex with a friend. ugh! i dont regret it, but i do. i was really really drunk, and so was he, but we still knew what was happening. i told him i didnt want too, but then he kept bugging me about it, so i finally was like fine, lets just do it. and it fucking hurt. oh my jesus did it hurt, i almost cried. blah. then today he sends me a text message... i was really drunk last night... so i replied, yeah so was i. then he asked me if i was ok, and yeah im fine but i kinda wish i had waited to have sex with someone i atleast liked in a romantic way. which probably will never happen, because every guy i ever like, i end up finding something wrong with them. blah. well im gonna go now. toodles.