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"next time you cut yourself, cut yourself a little deeper, so then maybe you can feel a fraction of the pain you have caused others." -Teresa
gosh, teresa rocks!
i dont condone cutting... i think it is a sad act. i truly pity the people who do it. but honestly, i think cutting is such a fad now. lol. i know real cutters and i know fake cutters. i know, i know, if you cut, then its real. but i associate fake cutters with attention cravers. now, im one who knows about attention craving, dont get me wrong, i am a libra for heavens sakes. and i do have to admit, i have cut myself in the past. but i always did it places people would never see, or they would only if they were looking for it. my friend would cut herself, and never show anyone. i didnt want people to know, because i was ashamed of it, and rightfully so. its an act that doesnt really help in the long run, so therefore, i dont do it anymore. i read this book called "cutting," and it explained a lot. a person with a mental disorder will cut, but they keep it to themselves, much like an anorexic or a bulimic. now i dont think a person who cuts, should keep it to themselves, because then they would never get the help that they need. but a person who flaunts it, is most likely just looking for attention. think about it, why would you want to show off a mental disorder? scars are not pretty. if a person blatently cuts themselves in conspicuous places for the whole world to see, then i lose respect for them. obviously they are fucked up, but not so fucked up that they need to cut themselves. i am probably pissing people off, but oh well, someone needed to say it.
lying is another thing, storytellers really get on my nerves now. i used to be able to put up with it. but if a person tells a tale so outlandish now i will say something. like this chick that i work with doesnt like me anymore because i call her on her bullshit. she once told me that she thinks i am really gullible, and well i took that as if she thinks she is smarter than me and thinks she can sneak shit by me. when in actuality, i hold myself higher than her, i could care less what she said. so once she made the gullible remark, i took the initiative to say, "no, 9 out of 10 times i know when a person is lying to me, i just choose not to say anything because i always thought it wasnt worth my time." and ever since then i have been catching her in her lies. not that it really matters, because she is so insignificant in my life, but it makes for an amusing 3 hours at work. i wish i was always like this. i wish i could just throw peoples lies back at them, just so they could see how ridiculous they sound, and how ignorant they sound.
went to candices house tonight, it was fun. she is such a positive person. i like to think of myself as a positive person now. i dont really get sad, and i dont really get angry. why oh why would i ever surround myself with depressing people. teresa was right, air signs should only be around people who smile.
i miss bree. but i get to see her in a month. my mom and i are going to florida and it should be really fun. i am gonna tackle bree, its gonna be awesome.
well i think i should retire to bed now. sweet dreams to all who read this.
gosh, teresa rocks!
i dont condone cutting... i think it is a sad act. i truly pity the people who do it. but honestly, i think cutting is such a fad now. lol. i know real cutters and i know fake cutters. i know, i know, if you cut, then its real. but i associate fake cutters with attention cravers. now, im one who knows about attention craving, dont get me wrong, i am a libra for heavens sakes. and i do have to admit, i have cut myself in the past. but i always did it places people would never see, or they would only if they were looking for it. my friend would cut herself, and never show anyone. i didnt want people to know, because i was ashamed of it, and rightfully so. its an act that doesnt really help in the long run, so therefore, i dont do it anymore. i read this book called "cutting," and it explained a lot. a person with a mental disorder will cut, but they keep it to themselves, much like an anorexic or a bulimic. now i dont think a person who cuts, should keep it to themselves, because then they would never get the help that they need. but a person who flaunts it, is most likely just looking for attention. think about it, why would you want to show off a mental disorder? scars are not pretty. if a person blatently cuts themselves in conspicuous places for the whole world to see, then i lose respect for them. obviously they are fucked up, but not so fucked up that they need to cut themselves. i am probably pissing people off, but oh well, someone needed to say it.
lying is another thing, storytellers really get on my nerves now. i used to be able to put up with it. but if a person tells a tale so outlandish now i will say something. like this chick that i work with doesnt like me anymore because i call her on her bullshit. she once told me that she thinks i am really gullible, and well i took that as if she thinks she is smarter than me and thinks she can sneak shit by me. when in actuality, i hold myself higher than her, i could care less what she said. so once she made the gullible remark, i took the initiative to say, "no, 9 out of 10 times i know when a person is lying to me, i just choose not to say anything because i always thought it wasnt worth my time." and ever since then i have been catching her in her lies. not that it really matters, because she is so insignificant in my life, but it makes for an amusing 3 hours at work. i wish i was always like this. i wish i could just throw peoples lies back at them, just so they could see how ridiculous they sound, and how ignorant they sound.
went to candices house tonight, it was fun. she is such a positive person. i like to think of myself as a positive person now. i dont really get sad, and i dont really get angry. why oh why would i ever surround myself with depressing people. teresa was right, air signs should only be around people who smile.
i miss bree. but i get to see her in a month. my mom and i are going to florida and it should be really fun. i am gonna tackle bree, its gonna be awesome.
well i think i should retire to bed now. sweet dreams to all who read this.