amazing....
it's amazing, how the strangest of circumstances, the stupidest turn of events, can lead to such an intense and amazing discovery. I've realized what I want, NO, what I NEED to do with my life...music. period. that's my ticket to the world. that's my way into the life I want to live. But don't take this the wrong way dear noone, I could care less about being rich and famous, I don't care about clothing lines, an entourage, hookers, drugs, anything like that....it's just that in my mind, in my fucking soul there lies innovation! originality! I hear this shit on a regular basis, this same old bland garbage polluting the airwaves of the IE, and it all sounds the fucking same! people start up bands, that sound like watered down versions of these half-assed bands that they idolize....how can you strive so damn hard for mediocrity people?! I understand there's talent out there. I understand that we all have different opionions and whatnot, but my soul aches for something that is in a different direction....something out there you know?!
tonight, I sat in the car with three of my good friends, and some other guy I hardly knew, and listened to them converse about this stranger joining their band. I just sat there smirking to myself, because their talking about what kind of band they are, saying stuff like "oh, we're gonna be like a touch of this, a touch of that, with some screamo. I know this one guy who screams really well, my friend's got vocals, so-and-so plays a mean guitar. we're gonna be on X103.9 someday..." and I thought to myself "man! they're inspired by all of this stuff that everyone is into! they're plannin on finding fame and fortune within the same boundaries as those other guys." i mean, let's say that they do become huge, famous, make millions of dollars, own a clothing line, whatever. so the fuck what?! I can't stop thinking to myself how much I wanna be the guy that pushes the envelope, I wanna be one of those people that can't be defined by conventional genres....pop, rap, R&B, metal, screamo, all that shit....none of it means anything! I don't car about the fame! I don't want money! I just....I have this desire to get music out there, that people have never heard before, that won't be played on the radio, simply because the masses will listen and wonder where the hell it came from, but those people with an ear for what's different, who grew up on Tool and Rick Ross, who can chill to some Radiohead, hear some techno in the club, and appreciate it from both ends. that small group of people that want something that they can finally say "this is what I've been waiting for!" and I know, within myself, that I have what it takes, I've got the talent, the drive, the inspiriation, and soon, the musical instruments necessary to carry out such an aspiration....so I'm stating this promise to noone but myself. this is what I'll do...I'm taking my life in the musical direction, and I'll stop holding myself back! come friday I'll have my room all set up to get a drumset, and starting in the summer, I'm going to take music theory classes to improve my music reading and learn chord changes and whatnot, and I need to learn how to work a soundboard....I WILL NOT FLAKE OUT ON THIS! lol. and this will be the true test....when i come back, read this entry, and laugh to myself when I've finally done it!
tonight, I sat in the car with three of my good friends, and some other guy I hardly knew, and listened to them converse about this stranger joining their band. I just sat there smirking to myself, because their talking about what kind of band they are, saying stuff like "oh, we're gonna be like a touch of this, a touch of that, with some screamo. I know this one guy who screams really well, my friend's got vocals, so-and-so plays a mean guitar. we're gonna be on X103.9 someday..." and I thought to myself "man! they're inspired by all of this stuff that everyone is into! they're plannin on finding fame and fortune within the same boundaries as those other guys." i mean, let's say that they do become huge, famous, make millions of dollars, own a clothing line, whatever. so the fuck what?! I can't stop thinking to myself how much I wanna be the guy that pushes the envelope, I wanna be one of those people that can't be defined by conventional genres....pop, rap, R&B, metal, screamo, all that shit....none of it means anything! I don't car about the fame! I don't want money! I just....I have this desire to get music out there, that people have never heard before, that won't be played on the radio, simply because the masses will listen and wonder where the hell it came from, but those people with an ear for what's different, who grew up on Tool and Rick Ross, who can chill to some Radiohead, hear some techno in the club, and appreciate it from both ends. that small group of people that want something that they can finally say "this is what I've been waiting for!" and I know, within myself, that I have what it takes, I've got the talent, the drive, the inspiriation, and soon, the musical instruments necessary to carry out such an aspiration....so I'm stating this promise to noone but myself. this is what I'll do...I'm taking my life in the musical direction, and I'll stop holding myself back! come friday I'll have my room all set up to get a drumset, and starting in the summer, I'm going to take music theory classes to improve my music reading and learn chord changes and whatnot, and I need to learn how to work a soundboard....I WILL NOT FLAKE OUT ON THIS! lol. and this will be the true test....when i come back, read this entry, and laugh to myself when I've finally done it!