Basic Update
School
Work
Relationships
Past
Neighborhood
Video Games
Life
I have been wanting to write a journal entry for a while now, but just haven't had the time to. So I'll give it a shot in an ongoing attempt to document my life online since 2002.
I am supposedly getting my associates degree in June of this year, and will get my bachelors in December. Business Administration for associates, and Accounting for bachelors. In retrospect, I really regret going to Medgar Evers. It's such a low grade school. The students are ignorant, the administration is horrible, and it's in a bad neighborhood; my neighborhood. One thing I don't like about the school is that for the past 8 or so years I've been going on and off, I've noticed that they lower the standards on an extreme level. That doesn't affect me much because I'm smarted than most people as it is, but for the people that are going there it's social suicide for them. They are given for or so more years to think that it's ok to act like an animal and be ignorant.
When I graduate, I'll start studying for my CPA exam. I may start applying for grad schools in the summer when it's a bit easier.
I am still working at Barnes & Noble. Almost three years now. You know what, all in all I am happy at my job. Things could be alot better, but it's just really the people I work with that makes my job sustainable. The customers are what make my job bad, but the flexibility and the management is great. I'm still never myself when I go to work because over the past year I''ve really awakened to what the real meaning of money is and how it works so I really think that jobs are slavery. When I go to work, it's really like "Anthony is not here right now. But if you leave a message after the tone I will get back to you...". The best part about my job is that I am constantly around books. That, I can appreciate the most.
I was never really big on posting up much on my relationship with Jennine on my blogs. Things are as good as they could be considering we live in Crown Heights. We are strong, that's all I can say. We both work full time and go to school full time. I have to take care of my mom. Her parents live in Queens. We have school work, house work, etc... We try.
My past has been coming up alot lately. I have an extreme sense of nostalgia (sp) when I go places and do things. Nowadays, there is not much physically stimulating things going on in my life, so alot of things are done through mental processes and I remember when life was much more simple than it is now. Things could always be worse, though. I miss DDR, not so much for the game but for my friends and the people I knew. I only type "DDR" because it's the best way to describe that era in my life; 2002-2006. I'd do it all again if I could, even if I didn't play at all and just went to all the get togethers, hang outs, and sessions. I loved the work out and the exercise as well. But I just miss seeing my friends multiple times a week. I miss traveling just because I wanted to get to a video game machine, knowing there would be other people there. I miss the long trips and a CD and or MP3 player. It was great. I've tried on a few occassions to reinvent that, but everyone has different lives now. Even me, well, me most of all.
I think that I thought that I was able to type all that has been on my mind lately, but I can see now that's not going to happen. I'll finish this up and see if I can type another entry soon. I don't know how possible that is going to be.
Jennine and I live in Crown Heights. We can't stand it. You know, before moving here I had little tolerance for ghetto people. Now I have none whatsoever. If anyone knows anything about 2012 and the disaster that is supposedly about to come, in a sense living in this neighborhood I almost welcome it because this planet needs to be cleansed. This is ridiculous. I don't understand how so many people can be ignorant. It's only be sheer luck that Jennine or myself have not gotten into fights or hurt by living in this neighborhood. I would have much rather stayed in Park Slope and been taken to court by my landlord than to live here because at least we would have been in Park Slope a year or so more.
I wanted to type about video games because I use them for an outlet and an escape. I got a PS3 for Xmas from Jennine, so currently I'm playing the following games;
-COD4(PS3)
-Bioshock (360)
-LittleBigPlanet(PS3)
-Killzone2(PS3)
-Resident Evil1(GC)
-Tekken 6 Bloodline Rebellion(Arcade)
I have Call of Duty 4 for 360, but I know a few people at work as well as some of my other friends that play on the PS3. So I'm playing that on the playstation. Not as consistent as the 360 version, but I'm getting the hang of it. My 360 actually died a couple of days ago in the process of me trying to beat bioshock, so I have to send it back to microsoft so no bioshock for a few weeks. I just started playing LittleBigPlanet and it already seems like a great game. Killzone 2 is a beautiful disaster. The graphics are great. The storyline is great. The structure, difficulty, and system of that game is horrible. Way too difficult, and I'm playing it on a regular level. I decided to actually buy the first resident evil for game cube. It's a remake, and when I'm done I'll by 2, then 3, then Code Veronica, outbreak, then I'll see about 4 and 5. I used to love RE1 and 2.
Tekken is what I play the most, and that's ironic because it continually costs me money to play. I guess there is really no point posting specifics about it, but I do have alot of fun playing it. I'm playing Kuma, Paul, and Roger currently. Very balanced game with high potential to get better based on reaction time. That's why I can't play stuff like Street Fighter 4; it's 90% offense. There is no reaction time in 2D fighting games when all of the moves are like less than 10 frames. With Tekken, each character has at least 70 moves and there are so many ways to take people out. It keeps my mind occupied.
Life is different, but I'm still Anthony. I've just been through alot these past two years. More than most people know. Right now, my best friend is hope. Hope has kept my mom alive, and it is hope that keeps me strong and makes me believe. If you don't have anything else when you are in a seeminlgy hopeless situation, try to find hope in your heart. Hope is what finds the path to make things possible and attainable. I'd rather keep it that simple.
Well, I was actually going to go deep but this just seems like a quick life update. I guess I can't because I don't want to. But in terms of intellect, if anyone is interested in where a portion of my mind is lately, look this stuff up on youtube;
-zeitgeist (and zeitgeist addendum)
-how the federal reserve works
-behold a pale horse
-The enuma elish
-Niburu, Tiamat
-The nephilim
-The book of Enoch
-Alex Collier
-The Photon Belt
-The Annunaki
-The watchers
-David Icke
Anthony J. Carella