Confessions.
What do you do when you just can't seem to put yourself first in anything?
I want so bad to be completely content but I'm just so scared to hurt other people. It's my fault for diving in head first and my fault for using white lies to make sure no one gets hurt. I'm in deep and I'm starting to drown. I just need this school year to be over. I need to be up north away from my Mother. I need my best friends. I will admit though that everything it starting to become clearer here in the South. I've found, FINALLY, a good solid group of friends, of course at the wrong time but it's okay.
I'm so scared though. There are too many feelings I wish I could let out inside. Pent up thoughts and actions. I just want too much at the same time and that's not right.
a straight line circles sometime.
I hope that a splendid road trip with Maija and Ash will work out this summer. That would be the absolute most magnificent time of my life. Hmmm. Im mailing you both a letter I just need one of your addressess. I got my phone taken away too so call me tonight or sometime because my source of numbers is stuck somewhere I can't get to.
Hopefully my decision of a termination tonight will be the right one.
I want so bad to be completely content but I'm just so scared to hurt other people. It's my fault for diving in head first and my fault for using white lies to make sure no one gets hurt. I'm in deep and I'm starting to drown. I just need this school year to be over. I need to be up north away from my Mother. I need my best friends. I will admit though that everything it starting to become clearer here in the South. I've found, FINALLY, a good solid group of friends, of course at the wrong time but it's okay.
I'm so scared though. There are too many feelings I wish I could let out inside. Pent up thoughts and actions. I just want too much at the same time and that's not right.
a straight line circles sometime.
I hope that a splendid road trip with Maija and Ash will work out this summer. That would be the absolute most magnificent time of my life. Hmmm. Im mailing you both a letter I just need one of your addressess. I got my phone taken away too so call me tonight or sometime because my source of numbers is stuck somewhere I can't get to.
Hopefully my decision of a termination tonight will be the right one.