White Crayon [FINALE]
Title: White Crayon [8/8]
Author: nodoka06
Pairing: YamaChii
Summary: He has been watching him for a long time without being noticed. He loves him so much but his love never reached him. He can't see him; he is just like a white crayon that is inscribed in a white paper.
Ryosuke was roused from his slumber when the sunlight strikes on his face. He dragged his weary bones from his bed still with his eyes closed and scratches his head, "Chii, I told you not to leave the window open...". He slowly opened his eyes and looked around to find his little friend. "Yuri?". He checked the toilet if Chinen was there, maybe playing bubbles but he wasn't there, he looked for him in their whole house and his spirit would drop with every second that he would not find Yuri in every corner of their house, "Where the heck are you?"he thought.
The shuffling sound behind him got his attention. He smiled when he thought it was Yuri but it vanished right away when he turned around and saw his litter sister lazily going downstairs. His eyes slid closed once and he did shake his head as he thought, "I should not think of him too much, he'd return soon when he gets hungry."
Ryosuke had his track to the kitchen to have breakfast, but somehow he felt like losing his appetite though he really was starving. His stomach was already hollow. He opens the fridge to get an egg and scrambled it. He stopped scrambling eggs for a moment and unconsciously allowing himself a little daydream thinking that Yuri might have messed up beating the eggs if he was the one to cook. He chuckled as he imagines an overcooked and disastrous scrambled egg served in front of him.
As Ryosuke finished his meal, the room grew silent as it was. He blinked and he was certain for what he feels. He's missing him. He's missing Yuri. He feels incomplete not having Yuri on his side, but why and how?
Two hours later, Ryosuke was resting on the sofa when a knock came at the front door. His little sister dashed outside to open the door as if she was expecting some visitors. It was just a minute when Kanon returned and she had her classmates along with her. She said they would gonna do some projects and stuffs. Ryosuke didn't mind it at first, but when the girls started to get noisy he decided to leave their house for a moment and went to the nearby park to breathe some fresh air. He bought soda at the vending machine and sat on an empty bench and watched the clouds drifted on the blue sky.
"Ryosuke-kun?"
He knew whose voice it was. Umika, it was from Umika. "oh, Umi-chan." Ryosuke looked over to find his bestfriend's little sister standing some meters away with his pet dog wagging its tail. An outfit of a pink casual shirt and short and a loose knee socks on such a warm day made her look cuter.
"How you doing, Ryosuke-nii?" Umika asked, sitting beside him. "Are you okay?"
He took a sip of his drink and smiled, he only hoped he had managed to make it reach his eyes. His appetite seemed to have departed him since this morning and hasn’t seen Yuri around for some couple of hours. "Yea. I'm okay." he nodded, though he turned away for a brief moment so she wouldn't see his frown. Why was he worried about Yuri? Yuri was just a soul; he shouldn't be worried because if ever bad thing happens to him, Yuri was dead already. And so what if he had already left him? He had only lost ... what? A friend?
"anou... mind if I'd gonna ask where is he?", she asked.
He shrugged, "I don't know. When I woke up this morning, I couldn't find him anywhere. “he retorted, obviously not happy that Yuri left without saying anything or even without leaving a note that he'd gonna be gone for some hours. But, what if ... Yuri has left him for good?
"sou ..." she let out a short breath and bit her lower lip as he thought that Yuri might have left completely. "ne, do you think ... he will come back?"
" I ... don't know.” as soon as she said those words, Ryosuke's heart clenched so hard in his chest he could barely breathe.
He was now alone on the park when Umika got a phone call from her mom. Ryosuke still didn't feel like going home so he stayed there a little bit. It was so calm, quiet and peaceful there that he soon fell asleep on where he was sitting. It seems that he really misses Yuri that the latter appeared on his dream. He hasn’t dreamt of him anymore ever since Yuri showed himself to him. His dream didn't last long when a raindrop fell on his nose and resulted for him to wake up. " Yuri, omae wa baka ..." he murmured as he remembered everything now. Last night, when he was sleeping, he felt a pair of cold hands touching his cheeks. He thought that he was dreaming when someone kissed his nose and bid his goodbye. He didn't see his face because it was blurred but after having that dream again that time, Yuri's face showed up and he knew now why the little one hasn’t been beside him.
He was running on the crossroad while the rain has started falling on the sky. It started with just a droplet but soon became heavy drops and it helped Ryosuke to hide the tears that suddenly flew down from his eyes. He ran as fast as he could going to a certain place he saw on his dream where Yuri was. It was also the place where they first met.
At the bridge.
Yuri had been on the riverside spending his remaining time on Earth. He didn’t want to leave Ryosuke that way, it’s just he didn’t know how should he bid his goodbye now that he’s so certain that he really loves him and that he wants to stay beside him forever until Ryosuke’s hair becomes grey. But reality is cruel and kami-sama had opened the heaven’s door for him. He looked up at the bridge and recalled how Ryosuke stopped him for being suicidal. “ Goodbye, Ryosuke.” he said and this time the sky who’s dark to everyone’s eyes produced a very bright light that only Chinen Yuri could see.
Ryosuke reached the bridge over the riverside where Yuri was. “Yuri!!”, he shouted. “Don’t go!”
“Ryosuke …”, Yuri once again looked up and saw Ryosuke there shivering a little. “Gomen… I think I’ve stayed long enough. Please take care of Umi-chan … and also… of yourself ne.”, he moved one step forward.
“I said don’t go!!” Ryosuke ran downwards the hill but the road has been completely wet so he slipped, and fell on the hill rolling like a stone.
“Ryosuke!!!!” Yuri screamed and soon the water was got mixed by some red fluid that’s been oozing from Ryosuke’s head.
A soft whisper escaped from Yuri lips and Ryosuke looked down to find his adorable pet - no, scratch it, to find that he had fallen asleep in his arms. His long eyelashes rested again his pale rosy cheeks, and his lips pouted as he breathed, his tiny hand curled around a button on his white shirt. And he knew in that distant he was probably dreaming again. “God, please don’t let me wake up so soon.”, he whispered as he gently stroked Yuri’s hair. He wants to be true now and show what he really feels, even just on his dream. Because for those five years, since he had met him for the first and for the last time, he wanted to know more. He want him to be a part of his life more that as a friend. More what, he had never been entirely sure. But definitely more.
He gazed at him when he felt him move on his chest and snuggled closer, resting his head over his smaller head. “Ryochuke … omoi yo… atama ga…” Yuri yawned as he slowly and cutely opened his eyes.
“Ah gomen gomen.” Ryosuke chuckled. “Did it wake you up?”
Yuri shook his head.”Iya.” he smiled, “Ryosuke why do you suddenly become sweet towards me?”
His stroking on the latter’s hair came to an abrupt halt, he felt his cheeks burning the moment he heard and realized what Yuri had said. “It-it’s because I was just dreaming darou?”
His cheeks were suddenly tinted by a very bright shade of pink Yuri almost wanted to poke and kissed his burning cheeks. “what if … I say that this is not a dream~?”
He blinked rapidly, trying desperately to find a reasonable reply to a question that he had never truly been able to answer himself. “Eh?”
“I think you’re really not aware of it …”
“About what?”
“You don’t really remember what happened to you?”
Ryosuke shook his head. “What do you mean?”
“Oh my God Ryosuke, you’re dead.”
“What?!” Ryosuke asked, shocked.
“Well, you tried to stop me leave the Earth and you slipped down the hill. Your head hit on a big pointed rock which caused your death. You’d been sleeping for 3 days and I’d been waiting for you to wake up.”Yuri said, throwing an arm over his shoulders and giving them a poor squeeze. “Welcome to heaven Ryosuke!”
“I, what, dead, heaven??”
Yuri nodded. “Yep.” he smiled beautifully.
Ryosuke didn’t know what to say. He closed his eyes for a moment and tried to recall everything.
“Ryosuke??”
He opened his eyes. “I remembered it now. I’ve just realized how stupid I was.”
Yuri breathed slowly, “Yes. You were. I’m sure you now regret what you did.”
He looked at him. “No, I’m not.” He cupped Yuri’s cheek and let their eyes meet. “I don’t regret anything.”the amazement at what he had done for him that time flowing over him again. “I was so scared when I saw you walked near the light. But I’m… I’m happy that … we’re still together” He smiled tentatively and he smiled back, his stomach dropped away into his knees. And in that moment he knew. He finally knew that he loves Yuri.
“Tell me why Ryosuke, tell me…” Yuri’s eyes gleamed so bright as he stared on his eyes.
“Daisuki dakara. I … love you … Chinen Yuri. I really do.” He hadn’t been able to resist falling for his charm that he pulled him for a brief but sweet kiss.
Yuri buried his now blushing face on Ryosuke’s chest the moment they broke their very first kiss, and they both know that that wouldn’t be the last kiss they’d gonna share. “I love you too Ryosuke.”
Ryosuke slipped his hands around his waist hugging him closer, completely closing the gap between them. He couldn’t even resist him more with Yuri’s kindness, and his desire to look out for him, And the very fact that he didn’t expect him to take care of him in return made him want to give him such care as was his to give.
おわり。
Yey! Finally I finished this story which was supposed to be a 3-parts fic lol.
Thanks for everyone who supported this story and those who never forgets to comment though sometimes it’s me who forgot to reply hihih gomen.
Idek if this is worth reading for xD
Sorry for killing YamaChii (^w^)y
Author: nodoka06
Pairing: YamaChii
Summary: He has been watching him for a long time without being noticed. He loves him so much but his love never reached him. He can't see him; he is just like a white crayon that is inscribed in a white paper.
Ryosuke was roused from his slumber when the sunlight strikes on his face. He dragged his weary bones from his bed still with his eyes closed and scratches his head, "Chii, I told you not to leave the window open...". He slowly opened his eyes and looked around to find his little friend. "Yuri?". He checked the toilet if Chinen was there, maybe playing bubbles but he wasn't there, he looked for him in their whole house and his spirit would drop with every second that he would not find Yuri in every corner of their house, "Where the heck are you?"he thought.
The shuffling sound behind him got his attention. He smiled when he thought it was Yuri but it vanished right away when he turned around and saw his litter sister lazily going downstairs. His eyes slid closed once and he did shake his head as he thought, "I should not think of him too much, he'd return soon when he gets hungry."
Ryosuke had his track to the kitchen to have breakfast, but somehow he felt like losing his appetite though he really was starving. His stomach was already hollow. He opens the fridge to get an egg and scrambled it. He stopped scrambling eggs for a moment and unconsciously allowing himself a little daydream thinking that Yuri might have messed up beating the eggs if he was the one to cook. He chuckled as he imagines an overcooked and disastrous scrambled egg served in front of him.
As Ryosuke finished his meal, the room grew silent as it was. He blinked and he was certain for what he feels. He's missing him. He's missing Yuri. He feels incomplete not having Yuri on his side, but why and how?
Two hours later, Ryosuke was resting on the sofa when a knock came at the front door. His little sister dashed outside to open the door as if she was expecting some visitors. It was just a minute when Kanon returned and she had her classmates along with her. She said they would gonna do some projects and stuffs. Ryosuke didn't mind it at first, but when the girls started to get noisy he decided to leave their house for a moment and went to the nearby park to breathe some fresh air. He bought soda at the vending machine and sat on an empty bench and watched the clouds drifted on the blue sky.
"Ryosuke-kun?"
He knew whose voice it was. Umika, it was from Umika. "oh, Umi-chan." Ryosuke looked over to find his bestfriend's little sister standing some meters away with his pet dog wagging its tail. An outfit of a pink casual shirt and short and a loose knee socks on such a warm day made her look cuter.
"How you doing, Ryosuke-nii?" Umika asked, sitting beside him. "Are you okay?"
He took a sip of his drink and smiled, he only hoped he had managed to make it reach his eyes. His appetite seemed to have departed him since this morning and hasn’t seen Yuri around for some couple of hours. "Yea. I'm okay." he nodded, though he turned away for a brief moment so she wouldn't see his frown. Why was he worried about Yuri? Yuri was just a soul; he shouldn't be worried because if ever bad thing happens to him, Yuri was dead already. And so what if he had already left him? He had only lost ... what? A friend?
"anou... mind if I'd gonna ask where is he?", she asked.
He shrugged, "I don't know. When I woke up this morning, I couldn't find him anywhere. “he retorted, obviously not happy that Yuri left without saying anything or even without leaving a note that he'd gonna be gone for some hours. But, what if ... Yuri has left him for good?
"sou ..." she let out a short breath and bit her lower lip as he thought that Yuri might have left completely. "ne, do you think ... he will come back?"
" I ... don't know.” as soon as she said those words, Ryosuke's heart clenched so hard in his chest he could barely breathe.
He was now alone on the park when Umika got a phone call from her mom. Ryosuke still didn't feel like going home so he stayed there a little bit. It was so calm, quiet and peaceful there that he soon fell asleep on where he was sitting. It seems that he really misses Yuri that the latter appeared on his dream. He hasn’t dreamt of him anymore ever since Yuri showed himself to him. His dream didn't last long when a raindrop fell on his nose and resulted for him to wake up. " Yuri, omae wa baka ..." he murmured as he remembered everything now. Last night, when he was sleeping, he felt a pair of cold hands touching his cheeks. He thought that he was dreaming when someone kissed his nose and bid his goodbye. He didn't see his face because it was blurred but after having that dream again that time, Yuri's face showed up and he knew now why the little one hasn’t been beside him.
He was running on the crossroad while the rain has started falling on the sky. It started with just a droplet but soon became heavy drops and it helped Ryosuke to hide the tears that suddenly flew down from his eyes. He ran as fast as he could going to a certain place he saw on his dream where Yuri was. It was also the place where they first met.
At the bridge.
Yuri had been on the riverside spending his remaining time on Earth. He didn’t want to leave Ryosuke that way, it’s just he didn’t know how should he bid his goodbye now that he’s so certain that he really loves him and that he wants to stay beside him forever until Ryosuke’s hair becomes grey. But reality is cruel and kami-sama had opened the heaven’s door for him. He looked up at the bridge and recalled how Ryosuke stopped him for being suicidal. “ Goodbye, Ryosuke.” he said and this time the sky who’s dark to everyone’s eyes produced a very bright light that only Chinen Yuri could see.
Ryosuke reached the bridge over the riverside where Yuri was. “Yuri!!”, he shouted. “Don’t go!”
“Ryosuke …”, Yuri once again looked up and saw Ryosuke there shivering a little. “Gomen… I think I’ve stayed long enough. Please take care of Umi-chan … and also… of yourself ne.”, he moved one step forward.
“I said don’t go!!” Ryosuke ran downwards the hill but the road has been completely wet so he slipped, and fell on the hill rolling like a stone.
“Ryosuke!!!!” Yuri screamed and soon the water was got mixed by some red fluid that’s been oozing from Ryosuke’s head.
A soft whisper escaped from Yuri lips and Ryosuke looked down to find his adorable pet - no, scratch it, to find that he had fallen asleep in his arms. His long eyelashes rested again his pale rosy cheeks, and his lips pouted as he breathed, his tiny hand curled around a button on his white shirt. And he knew in that distant he was probably dreaming again. “God, please don’t let me wake up so soon.”, he whispered as he gently stroked Yuri’s hair. He wants to be true now and show what he really feels, even just on his dream. Because for those five years, since he had met him for the first and for the last time, he wanted to know more. He want him to be a part of his life more that as a friend. More what, he had never been entirely sure. But definitely more.
He gazed at him when he felt him move on his chest and snuggled closer, resting his head over his smaller head. “Ryochuke … omoi yo… atama ga…” Yuri yawned as he slowly and cutely opened his eyes.
“Ah gomen gomen.” Ryosuke chuckled. “Did it wake you up?”
Yuri shook his head.”Iya.” he smiled, “Ryosuke why do you suddenly become sweet towards me?”
His stroking on the latter’s hair came to an abrupt halt, he felt his cheeks burning the moment he heard and realized what Yuri had said. “It-it’s because I was just dreaming darou?”
His cheeks were suddenly tinted by a very bright shade of pink Yuri almost wanted to poke and kissed his burning cheeks. “what if … I say that this is not a dream~?”
He blinked rapidly, trying desperately to find a reasonable reply to a question that he had never truly been able to answer himself. “Eh?”
“I think you’re really not aware of it …”
“About what?”
“You don’t really remember what happened to you?”
Ryosuke shook his head. “What do you mean?”
“Oh my God Ryosuke, you’re dead.”
“What?!” Ryosuke asked, shocked.
“Well, you tried to stop me leave the Earth and you slipped down the hill. Your head hit on a big pointed rock which caused your death. You’d been sleeping for 3 days and I’d been waiting for you to wake up.”Yuri said, throwing an arm over his shoulders and giving them a poor squeeze. “Welcome to heaven Ryosuke!”
“I, what, dead, heaven??”
Yuri nodded. “Yep.” he smiled beautifully.
Ryosuke didn’t know what to say. He closed his eyes for a moment and tried to recall everything.
“Ryosuke??”
He opened his eyes. “I remembered it now. I’ve just realized how stupid I was.”
Yuri breathed slowly, “Yes. You were. I’m sure you now regret what you did.”
He looked at him. “No, I’m not.” He cupped Yuri’s cheek and let their eyes meet. “I don’t regret anything.”the amazement at what he had done for him that time flowing over him again. “I was so scared when I saw you walked near the light. But I’m… I’m happy that … we’re still together” He smiled tentatively and he smiled back, his stomach dropped away into his knees. And in that moment he knew. He finally knew that he loves Yuri.
“Tell me why Ryosuke, tell me…” Yuri’s eyes gleamed so bright as he stared on his eyes.
“Daisuki dakara. I … love you … Chinen Yuri. I really do.” He hadn’t been able to resist falling for his charm that he pulled him for a brief but sweet kiss.
Yuri buried his now blushing face on Ryosuke’s chest the moment they broke their very first kiss, and they both know that that wouldn’t be the last kiss they’d gonna share. “I love you too Ryosuke.”
Ryosuke slipped his hands around his waist hugging him closer, completely closing the gap between them. He couldn’t even resist him more with Yuri’s kindness, and his desire to look out for him, And the very fact that he didn’t expect him to take care of him in return made him want to give him such care as was his to give.
おわり。
Yey! Finally I finished this story which was supposed to be a 3-parts fic lol.
Thanks for everyone who supported this story and those who never forgets to comment though sometimes it’s me who forgot to reply hihih gomen.
Idek if this is worth reading for xD
Sorry for killing YamaChii (^w^)y