Split Personality
Title: Split Personality
Author: nodoka06
Pairing: Yamada/Chinen
Summary: Yamada has been ignoring Chinen and it pains the younger so much.
A/N: Asti-chan requested to make a story behind a YamaChii picture long time ago so this one is for her/ hikarichan92
Demo I think this is kinda fail so I’m sorry XD.
Sigh.
Chinen Yuri sighs again in frustration. Yamada Ryosuke is ignoring him again. Again and again and it annoys him, it hurts him.
But why? Why does his beloved boyfriend keep on putting a space between them? He’s been trying to get the older boy’s attention
but to no avail. Yamada would just look at him with a plain expression on his eyes and wouldn’t say anything afterwards. No compliment or any reaction. But the chibi doesn’t want to give up.
He sits on the sofa inside the studio, silently watches the boy he most cherished being partner with other man, with Nakajima Yuto. It is time for another set of photoshoot for Potato. And if it is he to follow, he wants to go home; seriously, he couldn’t take to see his prince being positioned on top of some relative of Goliath. He wants to inform the staff that what they are telling the two to do appears like a recycled thing, and it really is. He wishes for a change of pose, or rather, he really wishes for a change of partner, since at that day, he is paired by Okamoto Keito and not by his real boyfriend, Yamada.
Chinen Yuri is not selfish, he may seem to be one sometimes, but when it comes to work, he knows that there would be some times that they will need to change partners. It is just … he feels like Yamada Ryosuke is getting into swapping pairs. Unlike the old days, he would see the brightness on Yamada’s smiles when they’re paired together, doing sweet things in front of the camera and there’s no need to act sweet because everything about their closeness and affection are real. No deception, no fanservices, just a pure love .But today, Chinen feels that he has been with a different Yamada Ryosuke. Everytime they do photoshoots, it is only him who does the job entirely, he is the only who looks happy when they’re on each other side, he is the one who normally does the hugging and kissing gestures but Yamada would just hug him back so weakly and his facial reactions always tell him that he isn’t enjoying.
But Chinen would just close his cute eyes and shrug it off, putting on his genius mind that his partner is only showing his tsuntsun side. He once said it on interview that his Ryosuke possesses a sour-sweet attitude, and normally acts too sweet on him when all the cameras are off.
However, Chinen couldn’t hide that he is deeply hurt. Why is it hard for his boyfriend to act so sweet towards him infront of the camera whilst he could do it when he is with the others?
The photographer and staff announce the break soon after. Yamada sits near the water jag and drinks some water. Chinen follows him, settling his self beside him. He just stares at him, watching the older drenched his thirst. Yamada looks at him and offers him a drink. He smiles.
“Ryosuke…” he calls with a low and soft voice. The boy gives him the bottle of drink as the shorter is not pulling his sight on his face, wanting to have an eye contact with him. When Yamada feels the younger’s innocent glares, he looks at his eyes for some seconds and later pulls out, he couldn’t stare that long, Chinen is just too beautiful.
“Anou…” Chinen speaks again, thinking if it is the right time and place for him to ask his lover.“Are you… are you mad at me?” his hold onto the bottle becomes tighter as if he thinks that he should have not asked it, what if Yamada is really mad at him? Is he prepared for whatever Yamada might answer him?
“I would not give you a water to drink if I’m mad at you, you know.”
A plain respond, just a dead respond. Chine couldn’t read if it’s a kind of joke or Yamada mean what he said. He couldn’t read him anymore. Chinen’s hand unconsciously trembles; he stirs his body a little to the side as he slowly drinks water. He needs to drink,
He needs to calm his heart down, he needs to control his emotion, because ever since Yamada became cold at him, Chinen Yuri has become so fragile, and every time the older boy seems like neglecting him, he wants to cry.
What’s wrong? What did he do wrong?
A short silence occurs and it feels awkward for the both of them. Lots of questions start to form inside Chinen’s mind; he has lots of whys that he wants to hear an answer from Yamada. So even though he feels so fragile at that time, he bravely asks Yamada just to put a period on each of his difficulty.
“Ne… Do… do you still love me?”with all of his might he asks, not only his hands are trembling, his knees join them on shaking. Yamada seems shock, but his his expression is still that plain making the chibi to have more worries, that he might hear the saddest answer that could break him not into pieces but into ashes.
“I never stopped on loving you, I only stop showing it.”
It hits him. It hits Chinen Yuri so badly. “But why, why do you need to stop showing it?”Chinen voice is shaking; the statement pained him even more. It is his fault for asking, but atleast he heard from Yamada that he is still loved by him. Crystal tears starts to form on the each side of his eyes, he should be contented for what he heard but he wants to know more. “Why Ryosuke? Why are you treating me this way?”, his white bunny teeth are slightly seen as he bites his lower lip, with the sad expression on his eyes, overall pain is seen through over him.
“It’s because … I want you to miss me. I want you to value me like how I put a value on you.”Chinen gazes at him, like he doesn’t comprehend what he was saying. The older takes a deep breath with a decision of him to tell his chibi his reasons. He too could see that Chinen is suffering whenever he ignores him, but for him, it is much painful for him to do it. “Because Yuri, I’m jealous of Ryutaro.” he utters softly, he almost whispers the name that is involved. He looks down as he feels humiliated for what he said. If there is selfish among them, it is him, Yamada Ryosuke. He wants to be the only person that Chinen Yuri loves; he wants to be the only one that Chinen would have his concerns of.
“Ryutan? How could you feel jealous at him? He’s not with us, since Johnny-san pulled him out… I don’t understand you Ryosuke…”
Yamada knows that Chinen is right. They already lose Ryutaro as a member, he shouldn’t be jealous over him. He is always been with Chinen almost every day, he could touch him every day, he could hug him, and he could even kiss him every day since he is his boyfriend. There is no need for him to get jealous. But Yamada Ryosuke has his own selfish reason, “Yes I know. But Yuri, I’m letting you say things that you’ve been missing him, everyone misses him, I know that. But sometimes, can’t you see that I’m getting hurt too? There was a time that you only talk about him, every day you would ask me if it’s possible for him to come back. I want him to be a member of JUMP again too, and he is one of my closest friend among the group but sometimes … I could feel the jealousy inside me. I want you to talk about us when we’re together; you know how selfish I am that I want you to only talk about me when we’re spending our free times together. So … when I’d seen that you’re missing Ryutaro so much to the point that you almost couldn’t see and feel my presence, I thought that… maybe if I should distance myself from you, you’d miss me and you’d tell everyone how much you miss me.”
“I-I’m sorry.” that what Chinen could only say at those moment. He never thought that his boyfriend could be that jealous so easily. It is so evident to him how selfish and envious his Yamachan could be, but he still loves him no matter what, even he has a piercing on one of his ears (he is against it at first) he still accepts him, because of a very simple reason, he loves him. Slowly, he hugs the older one, as it is the only thing he knows that could make his feel that he is important. He wants to kiss him but since they’re in a photoshoot session he scratch that thought off. “I’m sorry if I’ve had you feel that way. I’m being insensitive, I’m sorry. Please show again to the world how much you love me. Because honestly Ryosuke, I don’t know what to feel anymore if you keep on distancing…”
Yamada returns the warmness of the hug Chinen has given to him. He too envelops him with his warm arms as he pulls him closer, wanting to hear his heart calling for his name and smells the scent he’s trying to avoid for so long time. “Did you miss me?”
“I miss you so much. I miss you more than you expected…” the chibi burries his head on his lover’s chest, savoring the moment. They might get paired to the other couple again once they break ends, so for Chinen, he doesn’t want to waste this time to hug his dearly prince even his bones break because of the tightness enveloping them.
“I miss you more Yuri. And I’m sorry for what I’ve done. I’m sorry for hurting you. I’m sorry for being so self-centered person.”
Chinen hisses, pulling his head a bit out of the latter’s chest to look at him and caresses those cheeks which has dampen by tears. “Daijoubu. As long as we’re back to normal, I don’t mind it anymore.” He flashes a bright smile, Yamada smiles back and those vivid smiles make their day to be as brilliant as it is ever again
Their break ends and the staffs call them for the resume of the photoshoot. Luckily for the two, the staffs decide that they will have a shot that’s only for the two of them. Chinen is happy as well as Yamada, but before the camera starts on flashing light, Yamada inform Chinen first, “It’s time to show my tsuntsun side again, I hope you won’t mind”, he beams as he pecks the shorter one on its pouty lips, “Don’t worry I’ll make sure to show my deredere side after the shoot and I’m sure you’d gonna love it.”
ーおわりー
A/N: FAILLLLLLLL. I’d encountered having a writer’s block on the midway of the story, so I want to apologize if it turned to be ugly XD I don’t knowwww, I’m not 100% confident on this.
Gomen ne Asti-chan if this disappoints you @_@v
Plus I'm having 2nd thoughts if I should really post this. Cuz YamaChii is BACKKK.
I wrote this some few hours ago when our broadband haven't been loaded yet so I was not aware of the comeback.
Though YamaChii has never been gone, they just rest for some time.
And seeing those picturesssssss plus the ハイナ, I have the feeling that I'll be able to write fluffy storiesssssssss again.
And I don't have time to proofread this so please excuse any mistakes =D
PS: Me and some of my shipper friends DECIDED THAT TODAY WOULD BE THE OFFICIAL DATE FOR THEIR ANNIVERSARY. TODAY IS THEIR 4TH ANNIVERSARY. SO SHIPPER LET'S ALL CELEBRATE FOR THIS.
PARTY PARTEEEEEEEEYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!
YAMACHII YAMACHII YAMACHII
I'M SO HAPPPPPPPY TODAYY
SO I COMMAND EVERYONE TO MARK THIS DAY AS YAMACHII DAY
AND WE SHALL CELEBRATE EVERY MONTH FOR THEIR MONTHSARY OKAY.
