It all changed with that kiss
Title: It all changed with that kiss.
Author: Tanaka Asami
Pairing: Chinen/Umika, Yamada/Umika, Yamada/Mariya
Rating: G
Summary: Chinen does the trapeze, Yamada jumps over Daiki. Summary is over.
A/N: I wonder my I'm too hook with `first-kisses` ff plot? (#1)
Have you already had your first kiss? Did you like the taste of it? Were you kissed by the one you love or by the one who loves you? Didn’t you regret it? Were you able to compose a beautiful, sweet love story with an unforgettable happy ending?
Could you tell me how your story worked? Tell me, how could I make mine a blissful one?
Because you know, I had my first kiss at the time I thought I was loved by that person. At that time he made me feel that I have some place inside his heart, that smile that made me believe we could go on more than friends. That time when he stole my heart that used to belong to the other person that I have liked for a long time …
He stole my heart not knowing he wouldn’t take care of it properly. My heart that used to be occupied by him …
By my first love, Yamada Ryosuke.
Though I know that Ryosuke doesn’t like me back. And he also doesn’t know my feelings for him -no one knows it either.
It is still apparent to me, or maybe to everyone that Ryosuke still loves Mariya, that whatever he does to forget her, it’s useless.
It is visible on his eyes how much he missed her each time he had some magazines on hand and by chance he would see Mariya’s picture on some pages. How he would look serious and would be silent when her name got involved on our topic.
How he would control the tears on his eyes to fall down whenever he thinks of her, whenever he feels the pain their separation gave him.
I’m not expecting him to love me back as I’m contented for what we are now.
Friends.
It’s just that I’m just this feeble to fall for him by the kindness he’s presenting on me.
He just sees me as his younger sister that he needs to protect every time I am in a little trouble; His little sister that he needs to guide for going in a better path. I’m just his little sister that he needs to care of, and would tell me that everything will be okay at times when I get depress, and would hug me.
Then, Ryosuke-nii, I want to tell you something …
Your little sister has been kissed.
And it bothers me a lot.
I was tricked.
I was tricked by him.
It happened on that night that when we were at Ryosuke’s house to do some school project. It was actually night as we were all busy with our own works - photo shoots, drama filming, recording, etc. We decided to give each other a part so that we could finish early, and we were divided by twos. It went with Ryunosuke and Mirai, Ryosuke and Yuto, then me and …
Yuri.
“Crap! We’re running out of glue.” Yuto said hysterically as he stroke the glue bottle on his palm and later he hit it on the floor like it was a drum stick. Ryosuke whacked his head to stop him from acting like that. Ryunosuke seemed so busy as well as Mirai, so I volunteered myself to buy for some glue.
“But it’s dark already, it’s dangerous -“ Ryosuke expressed in a concern voice but he got cut down by Yuri before he could finish his brotherly-caution.
“I’m going with her, since she’s my partner for today”, he said, smiling teasingly as Ryosuke just gave a nod then we leave after.
There’s a nearby school supplies’ store so we didn’t spend a long time looking for glue.
Until he grabbed my hand without prior notice, pulled me on a corner of the street and pinned me at the light post where my back was leaning at.
“Umi-chan, I just realized how beautiful you are.”, he started as he gently brushed my hair, leaning closer.
I was stunned; stunned because I never expected that Yuri could do something like that. And … and it’s so transparent to me how cute he is as he was so closed to me at that time. There’s no way I could escape for his evil trap notwithstanding I’m a little taller than him, he is still a guy. And I believe he is till stronger than I am.
“Eh-ehh?”, that’s all I could say as my heart starts to beat fast. Surprisingly faster than how it beats for Ryosuke. He cupped my face to let my eyes meet his, but I looked down, nervous on what might happen.
“Umi-chan ish really beautiful~”, he chanted cutely at my ears. I knew I was starting to blush as I felt a hot sensation at my cheeks. Then he caressed my redden cheeks softly and as gentle as he could.
He leaned more and by there, I could sense the astonishing warmth of his inhalation. I tried to free myself for him but he seized of my hand again and smoothly hugged my waist. I was about to scold him to stop on what he’s doing at me, but it was too late.
He already has planted a kiss on my lips.
A kiss that frizzed my whole body turning me into a stone; I went blank. And I couldn’t understand my feelings at that time, I couldn’t even understand his action, and I do not know what to do. If I should pull out since I know what we’re doing is wrong. Or should I kiss back since honestly, I loved how his lips taste; it is so sweet like I am actually eating some candy. Or should I slap his face for how he disrespects me as a girl and for stealing a kiss from me?
He pulled out as he had enough of my lips. He smiled and said, “Taste sweet.”
And those words made my cheeks to be redder; made my blood to loose on its proper circulation.
We went back to Ryosuke’s house with me not saying anything after we parted our lips. I just do not know what to say anymore.
I thought I could forget what happened when I wake up the next morning, but I couldn’t. It still lingers on my mind, and the sweetness of his lips is still on mine, and I couldn’t erase it even how many times I brush my teeth and wipe it with a towel for a million times.
“Umi-chan looks so chubby here~”, he teased inside our classroom when he saw the magazine Mirai bought earlier and saw my pictures inside.
I didn’t give a respond as I remembered it again upon hearing his voice. And I know he’s waiting for me to be a bit mad or a bit irritated like what I usually do to him. I know he’s waiting for a little whack on his arm or a pout from me. I’m thankful that Ryosuke was there and he got to expunge my edginess and coped to catch me even though he doesn’t have any idea on what I was feeling.
“Chinen, if Umika would be your basis for being a chubby, then what should I call myself, obese?”
I laughed a bit on what he said. But it faded out when Yuri told me how cute I am with that smile. I really felt happy inside but … something really changed. And I don’t know what it is.
I couldn’t look at his eyes anymore.
I couldn’t laugh at his jokes anymore.
I couldn’t be on myself anymore when he’s near me or when he’s around.
And I hate it.
I hate how I’m making a distance between us though I want us to be together. Now that he has completely stolen me from Ryosuke; now that I’m certain that I love him.
But I guess, destiny is too cruel towards me.
“I’m not really interested in any girls.”
I heard him said it to Yuto when they’re alone at the classroom, doing the cleaning. They didn’t know my existence because I was really about to get some things on my table, but instead of persisting and just act like I didn’t hear anything (and since he really didn’t state any name), I ran away as silent as I could, carrying those unwanted tears on my eyes.
I was running nowhere and I just found myself at the playground, sitting on the swing as I felt so tired and the pain inside my chest is like hell. My tears seem so heavy that I couldn't do anything, I couldn’t move; I do not have any strength to swing myself.
Until I saw that familiar figure standing in front of me, offering some ice cream. I immediately wipe down my tears because I do not want him to see me crying. I tried to show him a very bright smile with my very best but it turned to be a weak one at the end. He gave me the ice cream on his left hand and sit to the swing next to me.
“Finish that first then I will allow you to hug me. I know my little sister needs someone right now. You can tell me everything, everything that is kept inside your chest when you finished your ice cream. Ryosuke-nii will always be here, and I will listen.”
I nodded and I finished the sweet on my hand as fast as I could. I hugged him like what he said earlier, feeling his warmth. I’m hugging him like my real brother and not like something else; I’m done loving him more than a friend because I started to love somebody else. I have started to love someone who I didn’t expect could hurt me this much.
- END -
Why are you looking at me that way?*yawns* I'm still sleepyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy........
Author: Tanaka Asami
Pairing: Chinen/Umika, Yamada/Umika, Yamada/Mariya
Rating: G
Summary: Chinen does the trapeze, Yamada jumps over Daiki. Summary is over.
A/N: I wonder my I'm too hook with `first-kisses` ff plot? (#1)
Have you already had your first kiss? Did you like the taste of it? Were you kissed by the one you love or by the one who loves you? Didn’t you regret it? Were you able to compose a beautiful, sweet love story with an unforgettable happy ending?
Could you tell me how your story worked? Tell me, how could I make mine a blissful one?
Because you know, I had my first kiss at the time I thought I was loved by that person. At that time he made me feel that I have some place inside his heart, that smile that made me believe we could go on more than friends. That time when he stole my heart that used to belong to the other person that I have liked for a long time …
He stole my heart not knowing he wouldn’t take care of it properly. My heart that used to be occupied by him …
By my first love, Yamada Ryosuke.
Though I know that Ryosuke doesn’t like me back. And he also doesn’t know my feelings for him -no one knows it either.
It is still apparent to me, or maybe to everyone that Ryosuke still loves Mariya, that whatever he does to forget her, it’s useless.
It is visible on his eyes how much he missed her each time he had some magazines on hand and by chance he would see Mariya’s picture on some pages. How he would look serious and would be silent when her name got involved on our topic.
How he would control the tears on his eyes to fall down whenever he thinks of her, whenever he feels the pain their separation gave him.
I’m not expecting him to love me back as I’m contented for what we are now.
Friends.
It’s just that I’m just this feeble to fall for him by the kindness he’s presenting on me.
He just sees me as his younger sister that he needs to protect every time I am in a little trouble; His little sister that he needs to guide for going in a better path. I’m just his little sister that he needs to care of, and would tell me that everything will be okay at times when I get depress, and would hug me.
Then, Ryosuke-nii, I want to tell you something …
Your little sister has been kissed.
And it bothers me a lot.
I was tricked.
I was tricked by him.
It happened on that night that when we were at Ryosuke’s house to do some school project. It was actually night as we were all busy with our own works - photo shoots, drama filming, recording, etc. We decided to give each other a part so that we could finish early, and we were divided by twos. It went with Ryunosuke and Mirai, Ryosuke and Yuto, then me and …
Yuri.
“Crap! We’re running out of glue.” Yuto said hysterically as he stroke the glue bottle on his palm and later he hit it on the floor like it was a drum stick. Ryosuke whacked his head to stop him from acting like that. Ryunosuke seemed so busy as well as Mirai, so I volunteered myself to buy for some glue.
“But it’s dark already, it’s dangerous -“ Ryosuke expressed in a concern voice but he got cut down by Yuri before he could finish his brotherly-caution.
“I’m going with her, since she’s my partner for today”, he said, smiling teasingly as Ryosuke just gave a nod then we leave after.
There’s a nearby school supplies’ store so we didn’t spend a long time looking for glue.
Until he grabbed my hand without prior notice, pulled me on a corner of the street and pinned me at the light post where my back was leaning at.
“Umi-chan, I just realized how beautiful you are.”, he started as he gently brushed my hair, leaning closer.
I was stunned; stunned because I never expected that Yuri could do something like that. And … and it’s so transparent to me how cute he is as he was so closed to me at that time. There’s no way I could escape for his evil trap notwithstanding I’m a little taller than him, he is still a guy. And I believe he is till stronger than I am.
“Eh-ehh?”, that’s all I could say as my heart starts to beat fast. Surprisingly faster than how it beats for Ryosuke. He cupped my face to let my eyes meet his, but I looked down, nervous on what might happen.
“Umi-chan ish really beautiful~”, he chanted cutely at my ears. I knew I was starting to blush as I felt a hot sensation at my cheeks. Then he caressed my redden cheeks softly and as gentle as he could.
He leaned more and by there, I could sense the astonishing warmth of his inhalation. I tried to free myself for him but he seized of my hand again and smoothly hugged my waist. I was about to scold him to stop on what he’s doing at me, but it was too late.
He already has planted a kiss on my lips.
A kiss that frizzed my whole body turning me into a stone; I went blank. And I couldn’t understand my feelings at that time, I couldn’t even understand his action, and I do not know what to do. If I should pull out since I know what we’re doing is wrong. Or should I kiss back since honestly, I loved how his lips taste; it is so sweet like I am actually eating some candy. Or should I slap his face for how he disrespects me as a girl and for stealing a kiss from me?
He pulled out as he had enough of my lips. He smiled and said, “Taste sweet.”
And those words made my cheeks to be redder; made my blood to loose on its proper circulation.
We went back to Ryosuke’s house with me not saying anything after we parted our lips. I just do not know what to say anymore.
I thought I could forget what happened when I wake up the next morning, but I couldn’t. It still lingers on my mind, and the sweetness of his lips is still on mine, and I couldn’t erase it even how many times I brush my teeth and wipe it with a towel for a million times.
“Umi-chan looks so chubby here~”, he teased inside our classroom when he saw the magazine Mirai bought earlier and saw my pictures inside.
I didn’t give a respond as I remembered it again upon hearing his voice. And I know he’s waiting for me to be a bit mad or a bit irritated like what I usually do to him. I know he’s waiting for a little whack on his arm or a pout from me. I’m thankful that Ryosuke was there and he got to expunge my edginess and coped to catch me even though he doesn’t have any idea on what I was feeling.
“Chinen, if Umika would be your basis for being a chubby, then what should I call myself, obese?”
I laughed a bit on what he said. But it faded out when Yuri told me how cute I am with that smile. I really felt happy inside but … something really changed. And I don’t know what it is.
I couldn’t look at his eyes anymore.
I couldn’t laugh at his jokes anymore.
I couldn’t be on myself anymore when he’s near me or when he’s around.
And I hate it.
I hate how I’m making a distance between us though I want us to be together. Now that he has completely stolen me from Ryosuke; now that I’m certain that I love him.
But I guess, destiny is too cruel towards me.
“I’m not really interested in any girls.”
I heard him said it to Yuto when they’re alone at the classroom, doing the cleaning. They didn’t know my existence because I was really about to get some things on my table, but instead of persisting and just act like I didn’t hear anything (and since he really didn’t state any name), I ran away as silent as I could, carrying those unwanted tears on my eyes.
I was running nowhere and I just found myself at the playground, sitting on the swing as I felt so tired and the pain inside my chest is like hell. My tears seem so heavy that I couldn't do anything, I couldn’t move; I do not have any strength to swing myself.
Until I saw that familiar figure standing in front of me, offering some ice cream. I immediately wipe down my tears because I do not want him to see me crying. I tried to show him a very bright smile with my very best but it turned to be a weak one at the end. He gave me the ice cream on his left hand and sit to the swing next to me.
“Finish that first then I will allow you to hug me. I know my little sister needs someone right now. You can tell me everything, everything that is kept inside your chest when you finished your ice cream. Ryosuke-nii will always be here, and I will listen.”
I nodded and I finished the sweet on my hand as fast as I could. I hugged him like what he said earlier, feeling his warmth. I’m hugging him like my real brother and not like something else; I’m done loving him more than a friend because I started to love somebody else. I have started to love someone who I didn’t expect could hurt me this much.
- END -
Why are you looking at me that way?*yawns* I'm still sleepyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy........