[YAMACHII] Sand Castle

[nodoka06]

 Title: Sand Castle
Author: nodoka06 
Pairing: Yamada X Chinen
Genre: Love, Friendship , a little angst?
Rating: G
Summary: Chinen has been inlove with Yamada since the day the latter ruined the sand castle he pitched back then when they first met.
A/N: Since I haven't been updating my previous YamaChii fic [A New Life Waiting] for almost a month now, due of school works and I CAN'T THINK OF ANYTHING of what to write on the next chapter, I suddenly thought of writing a different story, just to inform you guys that I'm still alive, and YamaChii is still alive. XD
- It turns out to be a little different from what I usually do; I lessen Chinen's spoiledness & Yamada's naughty-ness. For some time, I wanted them to appear a little decent on my work. LOL



I've liked you for a long time
Tightly, tightly, stronger, I wanted to hold you

I pulled out my pair of earphones on my bag as I saw the status of my iPod's battery with a single bar left. I plugged it in as I put them on my ears and started listening to it. All the classes were dismissed while I found my way at the 2nd year's corridor and stopped to have a peek on the school ground by the window.

I didn't expect that I would see him by there.

For the meantime, I lost my focus on the music that was playing on my ears and my eyes locked on a guy who was on a far. He was with our tallest classmate, Yuto.

I could see from there that he was laughing, sharing that cute laughter with his best friend. Chatting happily as they walked together which I assume they would go to the soccer field because they were both on the soccer club and they always have practices after school hours.

My heart starts to beat fast as he looked up at my direction and there I had a glance on him. The little red thing inside my chest pounds hard when I saw his angelic face, his little smile on his lips that I always longing for, those cheeks that are so plump that everybody would love to pinch. He really has a sharp feeling that even I'm from a far, he can sense that someone is watching him. I immediately eluded a look and touched the earphone on my left ear like I was having a good time on my playlist, though I doubt he wouldn't see me with my earphones. I leaned my back on the window though I knew he wouldn't see me blushing.

It is so funny to think that he can make me blush that easily. He can make my heart jump with just a smile. Can give me a serious nervous breakdown with just a look.

I put my hand on my chest as I feel my raging heart. I commanded it to stop but suddenly it fears me not to do so or I might die. Instead, I tried to listen in every beat of it as I heard it yelling for his name.

I closed my eyes and savors the moment that my heart is shouting for his name. I'm jealous on my heart for how he can shout his name fearlessly, how he can yell inside my whole internal organs that he love him. Compared to me, I'm nothing. I'm a coward, and I'm always afraid to tell him what I feel towards him. Afraid to be rejected. Afraid of losing him.

I opened my eyes when the music on my ears had stopped.
"Crap this!" I suddenly spoke when I noticed that my music player had already shut down. I took the mini headset on my ears and put them inside my bag with my pink iPod.

It seems that I looked very troubled upon putting my thing inside my bag as a girl who is smaller than me appeared in front of me and asked me in a little concerned way.

"Do you have any problem Chinen-kun?" I looked at her as I heard her question. I just slightly shook my head because I was a little surprised by her appearance. I even do not know her but she eventually knows my name; maybe because I'm pretty popular for her to know. It was my first time seeing her at our school and I felt a little rudeness on her when she didn't address me as her 'sempai' with my thought that she's only a freshmen. But I realized that I was wrong when I saw the three lines on her necktie indicating that she's in the same level as me. Oh, maybe she is a transfered student.

"Okay" she plainly responded as she shrugged. I think she started to think that I am a snob. I watched her walked away and had her step down on the stairs. Then I snapped out on what I was doing earlier. I turned back to have a peek again on the glass window and sighed when I couldn't see his figure anymore.

I left the corridor and went to the soccer field to watch them practice. It's not that I'm stalking him, yeah maybe it can be counted but I'm accustomed to do it since we are neighbors and he always ask me to wait for him since it doesn't last long.

I sat on a bench and there I had a clear view of him. It is really obvious that he likes soccer, since then when we're still a kid.

Suddenly, a memory of our childhood days played on my mind.

It was summer and I was on the village park. I was only 4 years old then and I was playing with the sand. I was doing a Sand Castle alone and I almost jump in glee as I succeeded on doing a very big sand castle. Suddenly a boy with around the same age appeared and he non-heartedly stepped into my precious castle; my castle who I had spend a long time pitching it, then with just a lay of an evil feet, it vanished completely.

"I've had defeated your kingdom! HAHAHHAHAH!!" he laughed like mocking after he destroyed my art.

Due to my sudden shock and with my frail emotion, I looked at my broken castle and started to cry. I thought he was a bully, a son of a devil, a boy who's always been a headache for his parents. I cried loud almost wailing, I sobbed here and there, hit my hands and feet onto the ground. He flinched then stopped on his evil acts. The devil I just saw turned into an angel as he suddenly hugged me and told me to stop on my scene.

"I-I'm sorry... I-I-I didn't expect that you'll cry... I'm really sorry, I just wanna play with you..." he apologized and I felt that he was really sincere for his sorry.

But because I was deeply in agony with my destroyed art, I didn't listen to him and kept on crying, much louder at that time.

He then tightened his hug onto me and rubbed my back,
"Please stop crying... I promise to pitch up your castle again, just stop crying... I really don't want to see you cry, I didn't know that I can make a girl cry because of my foolishness."

"I'm not a girl!" I stopped on my sob for a while to correct him with regards to my gender.

"Eh? Don't fool me. I know you're a girl. And just seeing you from a far makes me feel that I want you to be my wife. Please marry me when we get old and I'll make sure that we will leave in a castle, in a real castle!" he said as he looked at me straight. Then he kissed me on my right cheek.

I immediately slapped him after that. I didn't intend to but my hand just did. I was moved as he kept still, touching his redden cheek while my hand left a mark on his chubby cheek.

"I-I'm s-sorry..."

He looked at me again and weakly smiled. I know he was hurt because the sound of my slap was that rough. It's obvious that he would cry sooner or later but he tried not to be defeated by the pain I caused him.

He rubbed his cheek then he was able to smile normally at me again. He get the pail beside me and starts on re-building my castle.
"I just deserved it for kicking your castle down and for making such a cute girl cry"

"I told you I'm not a girl!" I screeched as he gets more annoying on me. Sure, I look more like a girl when I was little compare to how I look now.

"Really? Then show me something to prove your identity" he smirked as I puffed my cheeks. I only thought of one thing to show him but I really didn't like it.

Then he laughed.

At first I hate that laugh but when I saw how her cheeks vibrates whenever he laugh, it's like it is sending me to heaven. The way his lips curved into a smile, and the way he looked at me with those beautiful brown eyes.

I laughed with him as I helped him build my castle, or rather I should say it as our castle.

"By the way, I'm Wyosuke" he uttered as he tried to compose the first layer of the sand and told me his cute name.

I chuckled as I knew he has a speech problem with the letter R.

"Wyochuke?" I repeated, though I was not aware that I also has a speech problem but it is by the letter S.

"Not Wyochuke but Wyosuke!" he stopped on digging and looked at me straight, he frowned as I kept on with my chuckle. "Please stop playing with my name."

My chuckle turned into a laughter when I saw him puffed his cheeks and he even spelled out his name for me to get it right.

"R-Y-O-S-U-K-E, Wyosuke!" He rubbed his head like he got confused why I kept on laughing until he asked my name.

I still wanna tease him so I said, "Yuwi, I'm Yuwi"

He grinned at me suddenly and spoke,
"Yui? See! Yui is a girl's name so I'm right, you are really a girl, stop pretending you're not, Yui."

Then he winked. I don't know why, but his wink send millions of electric circuits on my nerves. Then, I was starting to think that he was stupid.

"Not Yui, but Yuwi! Y-U-R-I, YURI!" Now it was me who was explaining my name to him. But then, I still didn't convince him because my real name still sounded as a girl's name.

I pouted as I couldn't defend myself anymore. I wanted to blame my parents for giving me this name. It's not that I hate when they see me like a girl, but it's just pretty annoying that they won't believe me when I tell them that I'm not. Why should I tell lie with regards of my gender anyway? I won't get any benefit on it.

I stood up and was about to leave until he grabbed my left hand.

His hand is so soft that I wanted to live there, sleep there like my bed because obviously it's softer than my pink bed.

"Where are you going? We're not yet done with our castle" he blinked cutely as I forgot how to speak. I just stared on those cute little innocent eyes that were looking at me and like pleading for me to stay.

"Yuri!" I heard my sister shouted my name in a distance and there I saw her and my mom waving at me.

"Nee-chan~!" I exclaimed as I waved back while Ryosuke looked at their direction then looked back at me like telling me to introduce him to them.

I beamed at him and pulled him up since he was still holding my hand. We ran to their place with our hands still intertwined. My sister noticed it as she made an evil grin and tapped my head.

"We just leaved you for a moment, and yet you already have found a girlfriend?"

"G-Gi-Girlfriend?!" Ryosuke exclaimed cutely and scratched his head. "Nee-chan, we're not yet girlfriend because I'm not yet courting Yuwi" he blushed as he said that.

"Yuwi?" my stupid sister asked. "And why do you need to court my brother, girls should have not do that. Let him court you, okay"

"Girls? Hey nee-chan, I'm not a girl, do I look one like your sister?"

I laughed on the thought that my sister thought of him as a girl like what he was insisting before on me. I stared at him and there I realized that my sister is right. Our hair were both longer than what boys normally have and his skin is like a porcelain and as white as the snow. Now he knew the feeling of being mistaken as a girl. While my sister did the same and laughed with me for knowing someone had doubted again about my gender. My mother just smiled while Ryosuke was left there pouting and still couldn't accept the fact that I'm a boy.

He then told us about his self a little and there we found out that he was our new neighbor who just arrived that morning. He hugged my arm as we started to walk home and kept on whispering things that he still want me to be his wife, be his bride and be the mother of his child. I don't know where did he get all of those thought since he's only 5 and just some months older than me.

Till now, I'm still holding on with his words. That he still wants me to be his bride; though honestly I'm afraid it wouldn't happen since he already had accepted the way I am. That I am not a girl. And even if I have to turn the world upside down, it can not change the thing that it is impossible for me to be his bride, since, we are both born to be a groom in the future. Now that we are surrounded by so many girls, real girls and not just by a feminine look, girls who are prettier than me, and girls who were born to be a bride.

I stopped on reminiscing when my phone rings and had a short talk with my mom telling me to go home straight after Ryosuke's practice. I nailed my sight on him after the call and my eyes followed him whenever he go, my eyes would chase for him whenever he run, then I would silently smile when their team would score because of him.

"You like him?" I heard a familiar voice on my side and had a look to see who it was. It was the girl again who talked to me earlier.

"W-What?! What are you talking about?!" I was a little bewildered on her question because I never prepared myself for that kind of question. I just don't know how to answer, do not know what to answer. Though I know that I like him, not just I like him but I love him, yet I can not voice it out to him, not even to anyone.

She grinned at me like she could read me, read what was on my mind. I felt uneasy with her meaningful smile so I moved my sight away from her and tried to look composed.

"Try telling him about what you feel. Who knows, maybe he feels the same way unto you. You will never know the answer if you won't ask. There's nothing wrong with trying. Don't let the time passed doing nothing and blame yourself at the end." she tapped my head like I'm his little brother and I looked up to her like I didn't understand her. She just beamed at me and told me to do my best. I don't really know what's with this girl but it it seems to me that she already knew me for a long time and that he knew my feelings for Ryosuke. Is she my heart who transformed into a human?

"Nodoka-chan!" I heard another voice of a girl which I believe it was her name as she turned around to see who it was.

"Kanon!" she exclaimed as she ran to her friend and finally stopped on sending me on a hot seat. I sighed as I feel relieved.

I just found myself looking at those two girls, with almost with the same height. They also have the same length of hair which are both shoulder-length. I wanted to think that they are siblings but I still have a doubt because they do not look similar.

My brows curved upward when that Kanon got something on her pocket and showed Nodoka a piece of strawberry pin. It was just a pin actually, but it bothers me because it is a pin exclusively only for the members of 'Strawberry Otaku Club' which Ryosuke had formed during our first year.

I'm not a member of it simply because I'm not found on eating strawberry. Something striked on my mind as I saw those two girls having a wide smiles on their face when Nodoka pinned the strawberry on Kanon's uniform.

I'm not so sure if I'm getting jealous or what.

I just can't explain my feelings.

I heard a whistle being blown and it indicates that the practice is over. I started to ignore the two when I heard footsteps going near me.

"So how was the game?" Ryosuke asked as he rubbed his towel on his wet face.

"That was good, as usual."

He sat beside me and drank the water I brought for him. I watched him as the bottle got empty.

"I saw you talking to a girl earlier, do you know her?" he asked me then I shook my head. He sighed and he got uneasy. I observed his behaviour until he slowly looked to Nodoka then suddenly looked down as she caught him and smiled at him.

Something hurts inside me suddenly.

"You like her?" I abruptly asked him.

He raised his head to face me and said, "W-What?! What are you talking about?!"

I didn't talk back as I got weak on his answer. It was the same answer I gave to Nodoka and by hearing it from him, I've already know his answer.

Maybe he likes her.

A month passed that fast and I never have the courage, even just a little courage to tell Ryosuke how I feel for him. I just let those days passed without him knewing my feelings. And as I let them pass, he is getting closer and closer to those two girls especially with Nodoka.

I'm thinking of joining the club so that I would guard them or just I won't let her go near with my prince. But I'm afraid I would fail on that plan and ... I might get hurt. Get hurt if I see him smile at her, which I wanted to be the only one he would give his smiles at. Get hurt if I see him shy just because she is near him. Get hurt if they would share a laugh, would start talking to each other and would have that very wonderful smiles and joy when they talk about their beloved fruit.

It's just that I can not promise to myself that I will not get jealous.

He has been busy with his own club lately as they prepare for their club performance for the Cultural Festival. Unlike on his soccer practices, he told me not to wait for him because he said it would take a long time to finish their club meetings and rehearsals.

Is it really the only reason, or he has something that he wants to hide from me?

What if they are secretly dating?

For sometime I wanted to forget my feelings for him as I feel that he already have found his girl. Now that we are mature enough to have crushes, mature enough to fall inlove. And I should accept the thing that I will never win over a girl. Because ... I am a boy. If I only have a fairy god mother or meet a genie, I would wish for them to turn me into a girl. Because maybe, when it happens for real, he might say those words again to me. Those words he always said to me almost everyday,when we're still young. Those words he never said again when I cut my hair short and my high pitched voice turned into a little deeper.

Oh, I missed him calling me as his bride. I missed him calling me as his future wife. I missed how he wanted to have kids from me, how he like us to be one and make our own family.

The day for the Cultural Festival came and I was on the main hall to watch them perform. I was sitting on the frontrow as he told me to do so, so he would see me easily on stage. I first saw Nodoka and Kanon appeared on stage wearing those cute strawberry costumes while the audiences got noisy especially the boys upon seeing them. Then I saw Ryosuke on the side of the backstage wearing a pig costume and waved at me with a pink arm.

I couldn't help myself but to chuckle. It was so cute of him that I wanted to stand up on my seat and kidnapped him from their act. I wanted to bring him home and kiss his piggy nose, caress his chubby cheeks and taste his beautiful and sexy lips that I'm sure would taste like his favorite strawberry.

Their cute play which I remember named "The Pig Eating Strawberry" finished without me understanding the story. It is just that I was only staring at Ryosuke at the whole time and didn't really listen to their dialogues. I don't want to hear him and Nodoka throwing their lines, all I wanted to do is to gaze at him, protect him with my eyes and wait for him to look at me back and give me his best smile.

I decided to go to the backstage after their play. I want to congratule him for a nice play though I was really not paying attention on their performance. But then, I didn't prepare myself for whatever I might see at the backstage.

I heard him laughing as my heart starts to beat fast. Then I saw Nodoka puffing her cheeks infront of him while he was facing back at my place. It's like they're having a good time as Ryosuke pinches her puffed cheeks and Nodoka had her revenge by pinching his prominent nose.

I got weak by just witnessing that scene. With just with a simple pinching moment, my knees start to tremble and I felt something dump forming on each side of my eyes.

I ran away with a shattered heart. Running as my tears kept flowing on my eyes throughout my cheeks. I don't know where I'm actually going to, I just let my feet carry me where ever he wants to go.

Then someone stopped me by reaching my arm and pulled me for a hug. It was unclear for me to see who it was since I was full of tears.

"What are you crying at?" I got weaker as I was able to know who it was. "Didn't you like our play? Didn't you like to see me with a piggy costume?" he kept on asking me as he touched my cheeks and wiped my tears.

I was out of words. Maybe because I can't hold my tears and I'm afraid I might say something inappropriate now that it is clear to me that I don't have anymore chance to tell him what I feel.

"Please stop on crying Yuri... You know that I don't wanna see you crying. I don't want to see a --"

I covered my ears before he would be able to finish his sentence. I do not wanna hear him again calling me as a girl. I do not want to hear those same words again as I'm forcing myself to forget my real feelings. I do not want to remember how I fell for him, not how he managed to steal my heart from me. I do not want to feel how I felt when he destroyed my sand castle because it hurts more how he break my heart into pieces.

He held my hands and took it off from my ears,
"What's wrong Yuri? Tell me what's wrong? I can't take it anymore seeing you like that."

"J-Just leave me alone. You shouldn't leave Nodoka you know, I'm fine... You don't need to worry about me."

"Nodoka? How does she get involved here?" he asked as he gave me that innocent look again.

"Don't hide it from me anymore, it's obvious to me that... she is your girlfriend."

I didn't know where I get my courage to say that. Then, he just laughed.

"Girlfriend? HAHAH! What are you talking about? She and Kanon are my cousins, don't you know that?!"

I pouted as I heard that laugh again, same when he kicked down my castle. "I would not have said those things if I knew they are your cousins!"

"Eh?" he got serious as he saw me blushing. He pulled me closer to him and and stares at me with a meaningful smile,
"Don't tell me you're jealous."

I turned redder as I get caught. I looked away and tried to pulled out on his hug but he didn't let me to.

"Have you forgotten what I told you before... Yuwi?" he grinned as he managed to make my heart skipped a beat again. I suddenly had goosebumps. I suddenly felt hot.

I shook my head, "I can't, since your words keep on repeating inside my head."

He strokes my hair as he gave me a warm smile. "Then what are crying at? Don't think of too much Yuwi, cause you know what. I still want you to be my wife. I still want you to be my bride and be the mother of my child."

Oh, who knows how I missed those lines. Those three nouns I always wanted to be with him; wife, bride, mother of his child.

"But--"

He didn't let me finish my sentence as he sealed my lips with a kiss. It gave me a hot sensation inside me and I love how his lips tastes. My arms moved by itself hugging his neck as I couldn't restrain myself for kissing him back.

We parted for some time and he wiped the remaining tears on my eyes.

"I love you Yui, Yuwi, Yuri... and I always will." he sweetly said as we shared another kiss.

-END-

Sorry for the ending. :))))