Turn It Around.
I have definitely changed since the last time i wrote here on LiveJournal, i kinda like the idea of a gap update, that way you can really see and read back and understand your own changes, makes sense right?
WELL, WINTER came and it is almost gone, it is rare the time i sit back and actually think about those last winter days a couple of years ago. I thought THIS particular Witer would give me " throwbacks" but it has been totally the opposite. I have been alright, i have met people and maybe it is worst then before, but I walk around with a FAT SMILE ON MY FUCKING face regardless.
we turn it around.
Family?- is family, they are strong, i have gotten closer, which is good.
School?- is school, i am attending La Guardia Community College and my major is ACTING. fucking sweet.
Work?- I am currently employed and money is good.
ADDICTION?- yes i am still mentally addicted to POT, but my mind and I juggle from time to time. WE LIKE TO HAVE FUN.
LOVE?!- LOVE!? am i seriously asking me this question right now!? AM I!? AM I!? AM I!?
love, is out-there. lets find it.
I'm counting down the days, when I will find this incredible happiness for a long time, in general. like that happiness sometimes your friends brag and talk about and you sit there like, " damn, I wish that was me" ?
THAT! HAPPINESS.
and see, we always have to chase it, Are we all born with happiness already fullfilled? i doubt it. IF you are one of them, and you are READING THIS, please! i have so many questions to ask you! :)
Happiness keeps running and hiding away from me, but i will find it and it will be my turn to run around with it.
-questions-.
*Is it possible to create an attraction towards someone because they just seem so impossible to reach and grab?
*How do we go about reacting when we do realize that this is happening to us?
*Does enfatuation really turns to need?
*What are things you can apply to stay healthy in these type of situations.
can i have some advice, please.
i dont think i will be able to this alone.
you know? the whole life thing.
i dont think I was built to do this alone.
damn it.
damn it.
i am going to turn this around, watch.
i so will.
its just i dont get it, WHY DO WE NEED A PERSON BESIDES US, when we all end up dying alone.
I will HOLLA.though. def. will.
<3
WELL, WINTER came and it is almost gone, it is rare the time i sit back and actually think about those last winter days a couple of years ago. I thought THIS particular Witer would give me " throwbacks" but it has been totally the opposite. I have been alright, i have met people and maybe it is worst then before, but I walk around with a FAT SMILE ON MY FUCKING face regardless.
we turn it around.
Family?- is family, they are strong, i have gotten closer, which is good.
School?- is school, i am attending La Guardia Community College and my major is ACTING. fucking sweet.
Work?- I am currently employed and money is good.
ADDICTION?- yes i am still mentally addicted to POT, but my mind and I juggle from time to time. WE LIKE TO HAVE FUN.
LOVE?!- LOVE!? am i seriously asking me this question right now!? AM I!? AM I!? AM I!?
love, is out-there. lets find it.
I'm counting down the days, when I will find this incredible happiness for a long time, in general. like that happiness sometimes your friends brag and talk about and you sit there like, " damn, I wish that was me" ?
THAT! HAPPINESS.
and see, we always have to chase it, Are we all born with happiness already fullfilled? i doubt it. IF you are one of them, and you are READING THIS, please! i have so many questions to ask you! :)
Happiness keeps running and hiding away from me, but i will find it and it will be my turn to run around with it.
-questions-.
*Is it possible to create an attraction towards someone because they just seem so impossible to reach and grab?
*How do we go about reacting when we do realize that this is happening to us?
*Does enfatuation really turns to need?
*What are things you can apply to stay healthy in these type of situations.
can i have some advice, please.
i dont think i will be able to this alone.
you know? the whole life thing.
i dont think I was built to do this alone.
damn it.
damn it.
i am going to turn this around, watch.
i so will.
its just i dont get it, WHY DO WE NEED A PERSON BESIDES US, when we all end up dying alone.
I will HOLLA.though. def. will.
<3