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my crazy day of anniversaries...1 month since i've been home...1 month since i've seen everyone...1 month since i've seen him...3 months since everything started...happy anniversary to me i suppose. is it wrong of me to be sad? is it wrong of me to miss him so much? sometimes i feel so stupid but it's all i can think about, so one month is down but i still have 2 and a half to go...so time is going fast but it also seems like it's stretching out forever in front of me, i just feel so useless like i have no way of stopping these feelings that i have and i hate that. i am so in love its not even funny and it just sucks cuz i cant enjoy that the way i should be able to. i dont mean to be mean, or bitter or unhappy but just hearing about everyone whos together and happy, and seeing people here together just makes me think of how much i miss it, makes me ask myself why can't i have that? my friend's boyfriend is coming to visit tomorrow for 2 weeks...i dont know how im going to be able to handle that....all i know is that i love him, and may miss him but the other option to what we have isn't an option for me anymore...