Sep 10, 2006 02:09
So its been forever since I've written in here. And instead of going way into detail what I've been up to I'll just explain in a nutshell...and if you want to know more well then find a way to get a hold of me and I'll explain...ha like anyone really reads this anyways. So this summer was good, I was painting, seeing family, was back with Cory and went on an awesome trip to Florida to visit my friend Tim. In Florida I got a new tattoo, a koi fish on my left ankle. Um upon getting back from Florida in July, Cory broke up with me because I went to visit a guy...long story in its own. So once again I am single, alone and it sucks. I switched schools and majors yet again. I now go to MATC for Fashion Marketing and so far I really like it a lot. I am working at Boston Store at Southridge mall and I've been working a hell of a lot...good money but sucks because with that and school I feel like I don't have that much of a life...or getting a whole lot of sleep. So that's my summer pretty much condensed big time. As for me hating random days...Since me and Cory broke up in the end of July/beginning of August we haven't talked at all. Well his birthday was yesterday (the 9th) and I decided to be the nice person and buy him a card this past Tuesday. So went, got the card...then me and Amanda are sittin at the apartment, my phone rings and who is it?? Cory of course. And like always acting like nothing happened, that he didn't end things bad yet again because I was the one to blame for it (whatever). I did bitch at him for a bit about the whole not talking to me and all that jazz, again a long story in its own. Well he ended up stopping at my apartment which was odd, we talked and whatever and then when he left he gave me a hug and squeezed really tight...again odd. I just don't know what the hell he is thinking!??!!! It drives me nuts, like he thinks he can just call me and everything is ok? No! ugghhh I could go on and on venting like there is no tomorrow but there is no point. Its not going to change anything anyways. And this is another thing I can't fuckin stand....guys who are I guess my friends but we never talk...talk to me about girls and shit. Like yeah ok I am a good friend but when we hang out and I'm with this girl that the guy is talking about it just pisses me off. Like oh god does she know how beautiful she is? and oh yeah my guys told me that she's something I should pursue.....well fuckin great buddy! I was there too ya know! I guess I'm just the fuckin ugly one, always the "one of the guys" friend who you can talk to about anything. This shit is never going to get me anywhere. I mean great that you can talk to me and trust to have serious conversations with me but thanks for making me feel like shit, I really appreciate it. And if this doesn't make sense to anyone...well I guess then I'm alone on it...like on many things.....
Until next fucking time....