omg

Mar 01, 2006 15:23

so today has just been one of those days...u kno the horrible ones...so i had to create a new journal to vent...my dad just told me that his gf is movin in and im so not happy...not that i dont like her its just...idk i dont want her here...when kelli moved into my moms house my whole life changed...even tho shes just a roomate she like starts to parent me and i hate it...i have no where thats really mine nemore...it really sux...now i feel like thats gunna happen here but worse...the worst part is my dad didnt even tell me about it...that kills me...he never tells me about big life decisions...like when he started goin back out wit that bith renee...i hate it...i just want my life back...in the past year it has changed sooooo much...the stability i thought i had is GONE...it sux...not to mention the fact that now both of my parents have some1 and i dont...that sux...i kno im only 16 but im lookin for a real meaningfull relationship...i want to experience love...i thought i did wit jimmy but i wasnt even close...i want some1 that cares as much for me as i do them...and then skool every1 i mean EVERY ONE has some1...its really sad for me...ya on the topic of skool...it sux...i feel like i dont belong and my classes suck...except for show choir...some of them i work so hard in and i suck at them...others i dont try and i excel...i used to love skool now i just wish i was in college...im so much more comfortable there...i think its cuz im old for my age...skool also sucks cuz its really in no way gettin me ready for my career...i want to be a musician and we have like no music courses...i applies for pvpa but im on the waiting list which might mean i dont even get in...that skool would def prepare me unlike where i am now...im takin all these courses that r crap...i want to get out and do music stuff...im in 2 shows right now but they r both crap...i feel like im wasting the talent i was given...if i didnt have music idk wat i would do...i could careless about skool...music is like my life...since i was little i have known i wanted to do music and im ready to get out there and do it...i need to start a band...that way i can do my music and possibly meet some1 too...there is some1 i really really like but i doubt he feels the same wat about me...thats another thing...omg...right now i just feel really unhappy...and ever since the summer ali and i rnt really at all the way we used to be so i dont really have a best friend...i thought ash was but she seems to have a best friend already...i just want some1 to talk to...maybe now that im older i should start seein some1 to talk to again...it helped when my parents seperated...im not usually this umhappy tho...hu knos maybe...well i think this is long enough so ill update lata

kali
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