i'm almost ashamed i wrote this...
so instead of dong like homework and shit, i'm on here. i've realized that all my entries are really short and my poetry sucks and i don't know why i try, i don't mean try, i mean wright (did i spell that right?)and here i am being hypocritical to myself for bitching on this, even thoug i've done it numerous times before, and i'm just kind of revolted by myself right now. i would get the picture if i wrote this all down in an actual journal but the fact that this is broadcasted on the internet for anyone and anybody to read is just screaming "look at me! i want attention! my life sucks!". everybody has a sob story, get over it, life isn't worth bitching about--yet here i am--it's too short and precious to dwell on the negatives like this and should just be accepted as things that people do. people have affairs, oh well, it happens. people lose friends, oh well, it happens(it sucks, but it happens, life goes on). the people that i know on here aren't over the age of 17--except kurt, he's an old guy he's like almost 19 (that was sarcastic)--there are two reasons why we should not dwell on negative things 1. this could very well be our last day here, it may sound morbid but it's true, causality says that you never know what's gonna happen until it actually happens. 2. you're so fucking young! i don't mean to attack anyone but people that say that they're life sucks and have felt so much pain imagine being an adult and not having the structure of school about you and your wife leaves you and you get fired, your life is now shit and you're 33. nothing compared to how some kid in 10th grade broke up with you. the fact is that who was freaking prom or homecoming king or queen your junior of high school won't matter 10 years from now. not a bit. who was going out with who won't matter either, nor who YOU are going out with (unless of course you end up gettting married or something, or that relationship moves into the real world). these 4 years we have in high school are the 4 years we have to decide and shape who WE are as individuals and watch ourselves and what we believe in and, most importantly, WHY. why is a question you should CONSTANTLY be asking. why do i do this? why do i feel this? why do i say this? are all essential questions for these high school years. the development of you comes now, teh completion of you comes later like when you're that 33 year old guy who got fired and left by his wife and is looking for what makes him tick, what makes him get out of bed, and finding out who you are will make it a lot more easier to find that reason to get out of bed each morning when yoou're 30 or 20 something.