Paris...like the city.

[nocturniandeath]

you are everywhere and nowhere...
i shroud myself with what is left of you...
i look for your fingers
i look for your eyes
i try to find you
i can feel you near me
but we never touch
my hands go through you
i know your whispering to me
please be here
pain is all i feel..
hold me
find me
come back
be within me if anywhere
i stare outside my window
a ghost of what has passed
a barrier between two worlds
which death is the only pass
i am struggling to find you
can you see me?
i search with a sharp eye
to find you lifeless
my tears cannot revive you
i weep for only you
my love torn away
from precious life.

you will be with me always...i cannot say good bye....watch over me...if you can...help me find a way to peace....i could wait a million years for you to return to me...i will always be looking for you...in the shadows....in the mist...in everything...everything thats beautiful is you...you will always be loved..i will love you forever...i will keep you....and i know and hope i will see you again...i felt you slip away...i felt it rip from me...the sound was loud...the force struck me too..as you were hit...i leaped off the sofa....i felt you..i was scared...i still am. i wish to be placed with you and you alone...forever. you are my soul mate..my best friend..i know you know this, we have spoke of it before. this life without you is already too hard. hold me in your hands.

Matthew Paris...like the city.
he was in every way..
that name fit you better than your tight pants.
i know that is who you are




you gave me more joy than i have ever known
you are special...you are the sweetest...you are everything that is beautiful.




i love you..




-i am sorry these are big