Imperfect
I am so frustrated. I am not perfect. I am an extremely haphazard person. I always have been. It's something I've struggled with my entire life, and even more as the single mom homeowner that I am. But usually, I just make things harder for myself, and don't generally affect other people adversely.
This all changes when Master comes into the equation. He expects perfection. I try so hard to give it to him, but I don't know how to achieve it. i forget things, and I don't know how to have habits that are so deeply ingrained in me that I never fail them.
He is a disciplined man of regular habits and an orderly life. I am a chaotic whirl of love, activity and emotion. About the only thing I manage to do every day is get the kids up and off to school. I do a lot of things... I just do them in my own time.
And now, I must do things in his time and I don't know how and I am disappointing him and I don't know what to do.