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just got back from the show at the edge. wasn't as hot as i thought it was gonna be.
Nicki and i had some issues. the shirts got sold for $5, when it was supposed to be $10, but it was paid back. there was some stupid ass drug dealer giving us speeches about war, and we were shitting all over him. mainly kostas. i barely talked to nicki the whole night and it really bothered me. i dont like being upset with her/her being upset at me. i wish my friends would listen to me more, i fucking say things and nobody fucking listens, whihc in turn kicks me in the ass.
im tired of all this drama. im tired of everyone fighting, im tired of feeling like i have to pick sides between things i shouldnt have to divide.
the show overall was pretty good. i moshed m yass off during what once was and the auburn system. it was hot as hell, and im sure i lost at least 10 pounds between moshing and playing our set. our set went fairly well, but the band of the night was definitely auburn system.
sometimes i feel like i have no one to talk to about stuff, and so therefore i write it in here. somethings i cant talk to nicki about, and other things i cant talk to my friends about, but yet, when i write it in here, sometimes people get offended.
i hope this weekend goes well, right now things are fucked. everything is a mess. nicki and i are a comeplete mess. the shirt situation was a mess, but i resolved it. the fights between everyone is a mess. im so tired of it. i dont know what happened but becky came up to me saying that Nicki did something, and i almost flipped out. all i said was "i really dont care what she did. i dont care anymore." i hate it. i wish everyone could either A) get along or B) just not interact with each other
yeah this is a lot of ranting, but i feel like venting i have a lot on my mind.
Nicki and i had some issues. the shirts got sold for $5, when it was supposed to be $10, but it was paid back. there was some stupid ass drug dealer giving us speeches about war, and we were shitting all over him. mainly kostas. i barely talked to nicki the whole night and it really bothered me. i dont like being upset with her/her being upset at me. i wish my friends would listen to me more, i fucking say things and nobody fucking listens, whihc in turn kicks me in the ass.
im tired of all this drama. im tired of everyone fighting, im tired of feeling like i have to pick sides between things i shouldnt have to divide.
the show overall was pretty good. i moshed m yass off during what once was and the auburn system. it was hot as hell, and im sure i lost at least 10 pounds between moshing and playing our set. our set went fairly well, but the band of the night was definitely auburn system.
sometimes i feel like i have no one to talk to about stuff, and so therefore i write it in here. somethings i cant talk to nicki about, and other things i cant talk to my friends about, but yet, when i write it in here, sometimes people get offended.
i hope this weekend goes well, right now things are fucked. everything is a mess. nicki and i are a comeplete mess. the shirt situation was a mess, but i resolved it. the fights between everyone is a mess. im so tired of it. i dont know what happened but becky came up to me saying that Nicki did something, and i almost flipped out. all i said was "i really dont care what she did. i dont care anymore." i hate it. i wish everyone could either A) get along or B) just not interact with each other
yeah this is a lot of ranting, but i feel like venting i have a lot on my mind.