this fuckin blows.

[nocturnaltide]

Yeah umm. So things are so fucked up right now. Nothing is going as I would have hoped, and I'm acting weird. I have a couple best friends that live in boston and I never see them, who knows when I will. Everyone that lives around here has pretty conflicting schedules, obviously, but all I want to do is hang out with everyone. I don't ever know what to do with myself, especially when I'm home. I can't stand big jim or anything that he says. This household treats me like I never left. I just want to get out of here. Too bad I can't afford an apartment along with car payments, insurance, and a phone bill on part time work at the gap. And people expect me to go to school?! How do you people pay for school?!

I'm so irritable. I get soooo mad at things and I can't stand it cuz I've never been like this before. It's that fucking army man, it changed me for the worse in every way.

I just want to get fucked up. all the time. I can't even tell how I feel anymore and it makes me miserable.

i need a cigarette...