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[nocturnallust]

I think i figured it out

i have been a christian for about 7 months now and it has been a confusing thing for me
i have changed the way i dress and act and so on and so on
but i have come to a realization
DURRRRRR

i dont need to change who i am
god has a plan for ME not a want to be ME
i have to remain ME at the core just live under a new set of rules
OH NO new rules
hehehe
Not a problem its better for me this way, just got to be kind and no sex till marrage
wow hehehe

not a problem, i have been looking for a girlfriend and it seems it is harder to find one now but then i realized mabye that is becouse i am trying to be somthing i am not
wow there is a IDEA

so the new plan is not to change ME just live by the rules

withch isnt a problem for me and it is alot less stressfull
not hate
not lust ( hard one)
dont lie
help thouse in need ( as long as they are willing to help them selfs after)
i think i can handel that
so i will dress the way i want and go back to be funloving chris but with out the
hate, hurt,lust ( ill try ), and selfishness

so lets give this a wirl shall we