Thesis D-day
Status: not done yet.
I have to get a complete draft to my Advisor tonight. Then I might get a few days to revise it after he has looked at it and made comments. This is wonderful of the department and has helped me to not have a nervous break down today, but it also means that I'll still be working on my thesis later this week.
Picturing Women Research Paper: due Friday, April 30th, extended to May Day
status: read one article and a few pages of another book
Semantics Project Topic Outline: due Friday, April 30th
status: don't have a topic, and don't understand most of Semantics well enough.
Thesis Defense: Thursday, May 6th
Final Semantics Project: due Saturday, May 8th
Picturing Women Final Exam: due Saturday, May 8th
The phrase "next year" has officially been mentioned by my dean as an option. Getting extensions beyond the 8th would mean not graduating.
If my best just isn't good enough and I don't graduate this year, I will still have a garden party. I don't want all your preparation to go to waste, and besides, I'm way too excited. It would be an Un-Garden Party, and I'd just get my own chairs.
I'm determined to get my thesis in. I'm still working on it and know what I need to do. I'm worried about everything beyond that.
I'm very grateful for everything you guys have been doing to help me and to keep my spirits up. I don't think I can even express how much I appreciate it. I love you all, and I hope I can return the favor in the future.
Over the years I have noticed a general trend in what happens when I have big things due. Shit happens. It has come from all sorts of different places - people, illness, general bad luck, even death and natural disasters. I joke about the universe hating me, and it has a pretty good grounding in evidence, but really I think my timing is just crap. Or there will be a miscommunication, or thing that maybe on a better day I could have shrugged off or talked through calmly, or if someone had known they wouldn't have done/ said, etc. Just stupid stuff.
I'm not expecting any of my friends to do anything, but in an attempt to avert disaster, let me be absolutely clear. It may sound harsh, but I'm trying to save my academic career as well as my personal relationships from taking a very bad turn unnecessarily.
So that there are no surprises or misunderstandings, I'm in a good mind set now, but I know underneath I'm barely holding it together. Academic deadlines, the approaching need to get a job that can make rent, and leaving two homes that I love very much, are not the only serious and upsetting things weighing on me right now. Contributing to my stress will get a severe response. Obviously this excludes things you have no control over like emergencies, medical stuff, etc. This is often where the universe takes another crap on my morale and ability to work, please don't help it.
I have to get a complete draft to my Advisor tonight. Then I might get a few days to revise it after he has looked at it and made comments. This is wonderful of the department and has helped me to not have a nervous break down today, but it also means that I'll still be working on my thesis later this week.
Picturing Women Research Paper: due Friday, April 30th, extended to May Day
status: read one article and a few pages of another book
Semantics Project Topic Outline: due Friday, April 30th
status: don't have a topic, and don't understand most of Semantics well enough.
Thesis Defense: Thursday, May 6th
Final Semantics Project: due Saturday, May 8th
Picturing Women Final Exam: due Saturday, May 8th
The phrase "next year" has officially been mentioned by my dean as an option. Getting extensions beyond the 8th would mean not graduating.
If my best just isn't good enough and I don't graduate this year, I will still have a garden party. I don't want all your preparation to go to waste, and besides, I'm way too excited. It would be an Un-Garden Party, and I'd just get my own chairs.
I'm determined to get my thesis in. I'm still working on it and know what I need to do. I'm worried about everything beyond that.
I'm very grateful for everything you guys have been doing to help me and to keep my spirits up. I don't think I can even express how much I appreciate it. I love you all, and I hope I can return the favor in the future.
Over the years I have noticed a general trend in what happens when I have big things due. Shit happens. It has come from all sorts of different places - people, illness, general bad luck, even death and natural disasters. I joke about the universe hating me, and it has a pretty good grounding in evidence, but really I think my timing is just crap. Or there will be a miscommunication, or thing that maybe on a better day I could have shrugged off or talked through calmly, or if someone had known they wouldn't have done/ said, etc. Just stupid stuff.
I'm not expecting any of my friends to do anything, but in an attempt to avert disaster, let me be absolutely clear. It may sound harsh, but I'm trying to save my academic career as well as my personal relationships from taking a very bad turn unnecessarily.
So that there are no surprises or misunderstandings, I'm in a good mind set now, but I know underneath I'm barely holding it together. Academic deadlines, the approaching need to get a job that can make rent, and leaving two homes that I love very much, are not the only serious and upsetting things weighing on me right now. Contributing to my stress will get a severe response. Obviously this excludes things you have no control over like emergencies, medical stuff, etc. This is often where the universe takes another crap on my morale and ability to work, please don't help it.