see how it sparkles down there?
I'm currently at Caitlin's house right now. I've been feeling very relaxed and good. Last night, we went to Graham's daughter Tia's birthday party at a park. It was such a joy to see all these ADORABLE kids running around, and I just remember all of that energy and wonder where it went...it turned into fat and covered my hips, that's what happened. Seeing Caitlin with Aria makes me want to be a mother so badly, she's such a great mother.
We took our shoes off and ran barefoot on the rolling green hills, we also decided to roll down the hills several times. Then we talked about orgasms and how long it took...etc. and I feel like I should be worried.
Then we returned to the apartment and made sushi, YEAH, I know how to make sushi now, that makes me feel so special, I LOVe making sushi, my sushi was damn good too! We also had raspberry schmirnoff, which made me sort of sleepy. And gathering new information about Bee's life, for some reason I feel really separated and insensitive. My confidence has been tried so many times through this. I can't help but feel slightly angry, mostly because I don't understand. I also feel sick to my stomache.
We went through some of her old clothing and make up and jewery that Caitlin and her sisters decided upon. It's all very wonderful, but of course there's that feeling attached. The clothes haven't been washed and still smell like her.
Rosemary came over and we all played Mario Kart for awhile on their new game cube, I lost every time, I need to polish up my skeeells a bit. And there were five different kinds of cheese its too, and so we gorged ourselves on those. And I passed out, and slept until 10:00 this morning. wow. I slept hard core too.
So now, we're going to go somewhere maybe in Seattle or something. We talked about the frye museum. And then I'll return home around 3:00.
Z was kind of grumpy yesterday, I think it had to do with the fact that he hadn't eaten since breakfast and had a lot of homework to do. I'm really glad that he got together with people and played mini golf :]
We took our shoes off and ran barefoot on the rolling green hills, we also decided to roll down the hills several times. Then we talked about orgasms and how long it took...etc. and I feel like I should be worried.
Then we returned to the apartment and made sushi, YEAH, I know how to make sushi now, that makes me feel so special, I LOVe making sushi, my sushi was damn good too! We also had raspberry schmirnoff, which made me sort of sleepy. And gathering new information about Bee's life, for some reason I feel really separated and insensitive. My confidence has been tried so many times through this. I can't help but feel slightly angry, mostly because I don't understand. I also feel sick to my stomache.
We went through some of her old clothing and make up and jewery that Caitlin and her sisters decided upon. It's all very wonderful, but of course there's that feeling attached. The clothes haven't been washed and still smell like her.
Rosemary came over and we all played Mario Kart for awhile on their new game cube, I lost every time, I need to polish up my skeeells a bit. And there were five different kinds of cheese its too, and so we gorged ourselves on those. And I passed out, and slept until 10:00 this morning. wow. I slept hard core too.
So now, we're going to go somewhere maybe in Seattle or something. We talked about the frye museum. And then I'll return home around 3:00.
Z was kind of grumpy yesterday, I think it had to do with the fact that he hadn't eaten since breakfast and had a lot of homework to do. I'm really glad that he got together with people and played mini golf :]