there is no you, there is only me!
so i talked to my stupid mom. i HAD to, because i needed her income information and signature in order to get a student loan. she doesn't make shit, and i didn't make shit last year either (according to the books anyway ;)), so i should have no problem getting plenty of money. this is the last chance i have at going to school and getting my life back together... everything depends on this loan and i am praying that it works out.
i wasn't going to mention this to anyone, but i decided that i don't care. recently i swallowed my pride and stepped foot into deja vu, the only strip club in port huron. it was just as hillbilly and horrible as i thought it would be. i honestly think my IQ is more than everybody in that entire club put together, and my IQ is only a little above average! the girls are all fat, nasty, and like dancing to country songs such as "she thinks my tractor's sexy". the manager is this fat, bald, redneck asshole with swastika tattoos who treats all the girls like worthless hoes. the girls are all "territorial" and the dressing room is worse than being in high school, except with more retards. they all have like 3 kids because they're too stupid to know what birth control is. i absolutely cannot believe the immaturity. i worked there for 3 days and decided that i absolutely despise every single worthless lowlife person there. i made more money than any other girl there and i was brand fucking new, so they all got jealous and started talking shit about me and looking me over and checking out my clothes. this one girl was like "you aint from around here, you looks like you from the city!" and i was just like... "yeah..."
I AM NOT FROM "THE CITY", I AM FROM A SMALL TOWN IN MICHIGAN BUT I DON'T LOOK LIKE THE TYPICAL WHITE TRASH, REDNECK LOVING, TRACTOR PULLING, BARN DWELLING, CONFEDERATE FLAG WAVING, RACIST, INBRED, UNEDUCATED, OBESE, BUSTED UP FACE, SNAGGLETOOTH, WEARING THE SAME CLOTHES FOR 10 YEARS, DON'T KNOW WHAT A CONDOM IS, SMELLY ASS BRAIN-DAMAGED HILLBILLY BITCH.
hahaha... i'm glad to get that out of my system...
so here's the current plan for my life. i guess i have to keep everyone updated since this plan changes every fucking week.
i've realized that i cannot stay in port huron and support myself. the jobs are all minimum wage, and the strip club sucks. i am now unable to live with adam's mom, since she works at the prison (as a nurse) and it is against the law for her to live with someone who is on probation. she could actually get fired for living with me. isn't that the most ridiculous policy you've ever heard of? so she is kicking me out against her will, and i'll be living with adam and autumn in mt. clemens for a little while.
but here's the idea that i have. i go to baker college of port huron, but there are baker colleges all over the state, including flint and owosso (which is about 20 mins from flint). both of these schools are much larger than the port huron campus, and both of them have dorm rooms. here's something GREAT about the flint campus: they offer FREE HOUSING for students with a GPA above 3.5, and housing at a 50% discount for students with at least 3.0. i am pretty sure my GPA is 3.2 or so... but i would definitely be working on raising it in the future. but the only way i'm going to be able to pay for this is with a student loan. but if i get the loan, my life will become totally stress-free because i will FINALLY have a place to fucking live and focus on school. also, flint is a bigger city than port huron and i could probably find a little part time job, or i could work at the deja vu in flint since it is known as one of the best deja vu's in the state. it is NOTHING like the tiny little port huron shithole club. it actually has a VIP, and VIP = good money. if you get a guy in the VIP you are making at least $300 per hour, no joke. and even if i didn't want to keep dancing, i wouldn't be a big deal since i'd have my dorm and no major bills to pay. i wouldn't even have to drive my truck at all, really. jeff would buy me anything small that i needed... hell, he bought me groceries and shampoo and bras and tons of shit over the weekend. this is a man who knows how to take care of his woman.
but again, this whole plan of mine totally hinges on whether or not i get the student loan. i don't see why i wouldn't... i'm just worried because life has a way of repeatedly screwing me over right when i think everything's gonna be okay. moving to flint and living on the campus is my very last option, and if this doesn't work, then i'm gonna be back to square one... homeless in port huron with no way to finish school.
for anyone who has ever lived in a dorm... what is it like? i have never been inside a dorm. i know they are really small and i would probably have a roommate, which is totally fine as long as they don't smell or fuck with my shit. i'm just wondering if each room has their own bathroom and shower? is there a refridgerator or anything? it sounds so stupid, but i've never seen a dorm.
i am praying this works out. i am hoping that i can start school in flint next semester, which starts in about a month and a half. i don't know how soon i would be able to move into the dorms or how soon i will receive my loan. i have never done anything like this before. but i can't just live with adam and autumn in mt. clemens for months and months, so something better happen soon. i need to get into school full time or i'm never gonna fucking finish.
jeff is coming over this weekend and i will be retreiving all my belongings from my dad's house, which i'll be able to store at adam's mom's house in her extra bedroom. so i'm glad that i have a place for my stuff with somebody who i trust. then the entire headache of dealing with my dad will finally be over!
i feel pretty hopeful right now... but i don't know. everything in my life has been going wrong and getting worse and worse, and it's been like this since october. i don't wanna get my hopes up and then some crazy shit happens again. i'm so sick of the stress and uncertainty.
well, there's nothing else for me to say... other than I LOVE JEFF and i cannot wait for friday night.
i wasn't going to mention this to anyone, but i decided that i don't care. recently i swallowed my pride and stepped foot into deja vu, the only strip club in port huron. it was just as hillbilly and horrible as i thought it would be. i honestly think my IQ is more than everybody in that entire club put together, and my IQ is only a little above average! the girls are all fat, nasty, and like dancing to country songs such as "she thinks my tractor's sexy". the manager is this fat, bald, redneck asshole with swastika tattoos who treats all the girls like worthless hoes. the girls are all "territorial" and the dressing room is worse than being in high school, except with more retards. they all have like 3 kids because they're too stupid to know what birth control is. i absolutely cannot believe the immaturity. i worked there for 3 days and decided that i absolutely despise every single worthless lowlife person there. i made more money than any other girl there and i was brand fucking new, so they all got jealous and started talking shit about me and looking me over and checking out my clothes. this one girl was like "you aint from around here, you looks like you from the city!" and i was just like... "yeah..."
I AM NOT FROM "THE CITY", I AM FROM A SMALL TOWN IN MICHIGAN BUT I DON'T LOOK LIKE THE TYPICAL WHITE TRASH, REDNECK LOVING, TRACTOR PULLING, BARN DWELLING, CONFEDERATE FLAG WAVING, RACIST, INBRED, UNEDUCATED, OBESE, BUSTED UP FACE, SNAGGLETOOTH, WEARING THE SAME CLOTHES FOR 10 YEARS, DON'T KNOW WHAT A CONDOM IS, SMELLY ASS BRAIN-DAMAGED HILLBILLY BITCH.
hahaha... i'm glad to get that out of my system...
so here's the current plan for my life. i guess i have to keep everyone updated since this plan changes every fucking week.
i've realized that i cannot stay in port huron and support myself. the jobs are all minimum wage, and the strip club sucks. i am now unable to live with adam's mom, since she works at the prison (as a nurse) and it is against the law for her to live with someone who is on probation. she could actually get fired for living with me. isn't that the most ridiculous policy you've ever heard of? so she is kicking me out against her will, and i'll be living with adam and autumn in mt. clemens for a little while.
but here's the idea that i have. i go to baker college of port huron, but there are baker colleges all over the state, including flint and owosso (which is about 20 mins from flint). both of these schools are much larger than the port huron campus, and both of them have dorm rooms. here's something GREAT about the flint campus: they offer FREE HOUSING for students with a GPA above 3.5, and housing at a 50% discount for students with at least 3.0. i am pretty sure my GPA is 3.2 or so... but i would definitely be working on raising it in the future. but the only way i'm going to be able to pay for this is with a student loan. but if i get the loan, my life will become totally stress-free because i will FINALLY have a place to fucking live and focus on school. also, flint is a bigger city than port huron and i could probably find a little part time job, or i could work at the deja vu in flint since it is known as one of the best deja vu's in the state. it is NOTHING like the tiny little port huron shithole club. it actually has a VIP, and VIP = good money. if you get a guy in the VIP you are making at least $300 per hour, no joke. and even if i didn't want to keep dancing, i wouldn't be a big deal since i'd have my dorm and no major bills to pay. i wouldn't even have to drive my truck at all, really. jeff would buy me anything small that i needed... hell, he bought me groceries and shampoo and bras and tons of shit over the weekend. this is a man who knows how to take care of his woman.
but again, this whole plan of mine totally hinges on whether or not i get the student loan. i don't see why i wouldn't... i'm just worried because life has a way of repeatedly screwing me over right when i think everything's gonna be okay. moving to flint and living on the campus is my very last option, and if this doesn't work, then i'm gonna be back to square one... homeless in port huron with no way to finish school.
for anyone who has ever lived in a dorm... what is it like? i have never been inside a dorm. i know they are really small and i would probably have a roommate, which is totally fine as long as they don't smell or fuck with my shit. i'm just wondering if each room has their own bathroom and shower? is there a refridgerator or anything? it sounds so stupid, but i've never seen a dorm.
i am praying this works out. i am hoping that i can start school in flint next semester, which starts in about a month and a half. i don't know how soon i would be able to move into the dorms or how soon i will receive my loan. i have never done anything like this before. but i can't just live with adam and autumn in mt. clemens for months and months, so something better happen soon. i need to get into school full time or i'm never gonna fucking finish.
jeff is coming over this weekend and i will be retreiving all my belongings from my dad's house, which i'll be able to store at adam's mom's house in her extra bedroom. so i'm glad that i have a place for my stuff with somebody who i trust. then the entire headache of dealing with my dad will finally be over!
i feel pretty hopeful right now... but i don't know. everything in my life has been going wrong and getting worse and worse, and it's been like this since october. i don't wanna get my hopes up and then some crazy shit happens again. i'm so sick of the stress and uncertainty.
well, there's nothing else for me to say... other than I LOVE JEFF and i cannot wait for friday night.