lost again
it's been a long long time since i've written anything here. years even. for a long time lj was my best friend and i'd share every little thought and detail of my life. then i met t and fell in love. we had a whirlwind kind of year then got married. the next few years were always an adventure with travels, new companies and new directions. 15 months ago we had a baby. she's the most amazing person i've ever met. amelia *sigh* at first she didn't do much but cry, pee/poop and sleep but these days she's such a little person with a personality that grows every day. we've been teaching her baby sign language so even though she only says a few words "mama, dada, more, etc..." she can sign about 30 different things which is really cool.
unfortunately since she came into our lives we've grown apart. t has always been a very independent person and it's been hard on her. so recently she's always gone anytime i'm home to watch amelia. and every weekend just about. and out 'till after midnight w/friends 3-4 nights a week. and now she says she's not in love with me anymore. i don't know what to say or how to feel. really sad and lonely. we're going to try counseling but she's already checked out so i dunno what'll happen. just have to keep my chin up, be a good dad and hope for the best.
i wake up every morning with her, feed her breakfast and play/read for an hour or two before work. then when i get home mom always leaves and i make her dinner, we go to the park, then come home to play before bath time/bed time around 7. weekends are usually at the park or mall playground. she's such a little monkey climbing on everything it's fun to watch.
so i'll keep going and keep my fingers crossed. miss my friends and hope all is good with you...
unfortunately since she came into our lives we've grown apart. t has always been a very independent person and it's been hard on her. so recently she's always gone anytime i'm home to watch amelia. and every weekend just about. and out 'till after midnight w/friends 3-4 nights a week. and now she says she's not in love with me anymore. i don't know what to say or how to feel. really sad and lonely. we're going to try counseling but she's already checked out so i dunno what'll happen. just have to keep my chin up, be a good dad and hope for the best.
i wake up every morning with her, feed her breakfast and play/read for an hour or two before work. then when i get home mom always leaves and i make her dinner, we go to the park, then come home to play before bath time/bed time around 7. weekends are usually at the park or mall playground. she's such a little monkey climbing on everything it's fun to watch.
so i'll keep going and keep my fingers crossed. miss my friends and hope all is good with you...