Just before I forget: I don't give a fuck!
Faint . . . a whisper, a word that beckons me so softly. Handful of complaints . . . a jury condemns me to a hell I’ve tasted briefly before. Broken . . . a lonely soul on a boulevard, all alone watching. Nonsense . . . all that is made, by my hands I fall. Time . . . won’t heal damage once ignored - can’t ease the pain that blooms. Luck . . . that which is not found in this world nor the surrounding inferno. “ . . . hear me out now, you’re going to listen to me like it or not - right now . . .” “where the hell are you - when I need you? . . . wake up, I’m pounding on the door, I won’t hurt you anymore. where the hell are you - when I need you? . . .”
Trapped . . . a light beckons me to the end. Scarred . . . turn your back like you always have as I trace the marks that were left there many eons ago. Learn . . . from our mistakes and misadventures we learn how to take hold of our future . . . though dark and grim, my future does await. Grey . . . a shade of fourteen; beckons me to the sight of . . . grey . . . a life I've lived for many eons. "you don't remember me, but I remember you. I lay awake and try so hard not to think of you . . . what they dream, and dream I do . . . to live, to breath. you're taking over me . . . " "I'll be coming home just to be alone, 'cause I know you're not there, and I know that you don't care. I can hardly wait to leave this place. no matter how hard I try, you're never satisfied. this is not a home. I think I'm better off alone . . . this is not my home. I think I'm better off alone . . . home . . . this house is not a . . . home . . . “
Dark . . . this life, this night. Pain . . . tasted blood as payment was made for the sins of the innocent one. Yesterday . . . that which was done cannot be retraced. Today . . . that which will be gone shortly. Tomorrow . . . that which is not promised - that which will not come . . . if one does not believe. Forgotten . . . the soul of the owner of the hand that holds the pen of the ink that writes this. Heaven . . . one must believe. Faith . . . the innocent one has done without for so long - it no longer holds this - it searches so fervently for this. Love . . . none is shown but by the friend and the fiend. ". . . I’m frightened by what I see, but somehow I know that there’s much more to come. immoblized by my fear, and soon . . . I can stop the pain if I will it all away - will it all away. don’t turn away - don’t give into the pain. don’t try to hide - though they’re screaming your name. don’t close your eyes - God knows what lies behind them. don’t turn out the light - never sleep, never die . . . death before my eyes - next to me I fear . . ."
Afraid . . . the dark consumes the innocent . . . rapes him of his innocence. Forever . . . that which is said never to end . . . that is not exactly true. Tonight . . . a score brews and blooms . . . ready to be settled, it comes into light. Lies . . . it pains me to tell the truth . . . I know it will set me free . . . but a lie is so much easier. Fight . . . never thought it would come to this . . . I'm afraid it has . . . this will end once I have won . . . Sex . . . you lied to my face and everyone else's . . . didn't you, mister know-it-all? How dare you . . . ". . . from underneath the trees . . . confusing stars for satellites . . . you'd be mine . . . here tonight . . . singing amen, I, I'm alive . . . if everyone cared . . . nobody cried . . . nobody lied . . . shared . . . swallowed their pride . . . the day . . . nobody died . . . amen, I, I'm alive . . ." ". . .don't'cha . . . fight the feeling . . . leave it alone . . . it ain't love . . . it just ain't enough to leave a happy home . . . don't have to play fair." ". . . broken this fragile thing now . . . pick up the pieces . . . my words all around . . . I can't, I can't give you a reason . . . so broken up . . . I give up . . . so you know . . . here I go . . . try to get to you . . . only one . . . let go . . . gets me like you do . . . my only, my only one . . ."
Light . . . that which I've not seen in eons now . . . I do miss it so gravely. Cold . . . my hands are numb . . . these bars all around me are as ice . . . I must resist touching them. One . . . all it takes to make a difference. Love . . . I have killed the love for one . . . the love for another is disappearing . . . I know not what to do. Quiet . . . you're quiet around me . . . and I do so wonder why . . . there was a time when I cared about what you thought . . . but that time has been long gone . . . you're nothing but a memory to me . . . that's all you'll ever be. Birth . . . that which begins it for one . . . begins the journey that you can't escape. Death . . . ends it for one . . . that which you cannot escape . . . and you wish to escape it. Fear . . . to fear is to give in to weakness . . . what is weakness when you have no fear . . . a lost cause. " . . . shot me down as I flew by . . . sometimes . . . you forget where the heart is . . . answer no to these questions . . . learn a lesson . . . you're not listening now . . . something's missin' . . . where the heart is . . . take you away from that empty apartment . . . someday . . . if ever you love'd me . . . it's okay . . ." ". . . something real . . . gave me all of yourself . . . I'm gonna show you how I feel . . . who cares if you don't like it . . . go ahead . . . you know just what you wanna do . . ." " . . . I'm hating what she's wearing . . . can't wait 'til they get what they deserve . . . your hand on my girlfriend . . . is that . . . I wish you'd do that again . . . leave here limping . . . there goes the next contestant . . ." " . . . well I wanted you . . . to myself . . . you got off everytime you got onto me . . . favorable slavery . . . wasn't really right . . . we were good in bed . . . fight for all the . . . reasons . . . it's a little hard to leave . . . you know my friends . . . know your enemies . . . said to me . . . I got off everytime you got on to me . . . insanity . . . it wasn't meant to be . . . I guess it wasn't what I wanted . . . wasn't really what I thought . . . I want it all to go away . . . go away . . ."
Trapped . . . a light beckons me to the end. Scarred . . . turn your back like you always have as I trace the marks that were left there many eons ago. Learn . . . from our mistakes and misadventures we learn how to take hold of our future . . . though dark and grim, my future does await. Grey . . . a shade of fourteen; beckons me to the sight of . . . grey . . . a life I've lived for many eons. "you don't remember me, but I remember you. I lay awake and try so hard not to think of you . . . what they dream, and dream I do . . . to live, to breath. you're taking over me . . . " "I'll be coming home just to be alone, 'cause I know you're not there, and I know that you don't care. I can hardly wait to leave this place. no matter how hard I try, you're never satisfied. this is not a home. I think I'm better off alone . . . this is not my home. I think I'm better off alone . . . home . . . this house is not a . . . home . . . “
Dark . . . this life, this night. Pain . . . tasted blood as payment was made for the sins of the innocent one. Yesterday . . . that which was done cannot be retraced. Today . . . that which will be gone shortly. Tomorrow . . . that which is not promised - that which will not come . . . if one does not believe. Forgotten . . . the soul of the owner of the hand that holds the pen of the ink that writes this. Heaven . . . one must believe. Faith . . . the innocent one has done without for so long - it no longer holds this - it searches so fervently for this. Love . . . none is shown but by the friend and the fiend. ". . . I’m frightened by what I see, but somehow I know that there’s much more to come. immoblized by my fear, and soon . . . I can stop the pain if I will it all away - will it all away. don’t turn away - don’t give into the pain. don’t try to hide - though they’re screaming your name. don’t close your eyes - God knows what lies behind them. don’t turn out the light - never sleep, never die . . . death before my eyes - next to me I fear . . ."
Afraid . . . the dark consumes the innocent . . . rapes him of his innocence. Forever . . . that which is said never to end . . . that is not exactly true. Tonight . . . a score brews and blooms . . . ready to be settled, it comes into light. Lies . . . it pains me to tell the truth . . . I know it will set me free . . . but a lie is so much easier. Fight . . . never thought it would come to this . . . I'm afraid it has . . . this will end once I have won . . . Sex . . . you lied to my face and everyone else's . . . didn't you, mister know-it-all? How dare you . . . ". . . from underneath the trees . . . confusing stars for satellites . . . you'd be mine . . . here tonight . . . singing amen, I, I'm alive . . . if everyone cared . . . nobody cried . . . nobody lied . . . shared . . . swallowed their pride . . . the day . . . nobody died . . . amen, I, I'm alive . . ." ". . .don't'cha . . . fight the feeling . . . leave it alone . . . it ain't love . . . it just ain't enough to leave a happy home . . . don't have to play fair." ". . . broken this fragile thing now . . . pick up the pieces . . . my words all around . . . I can't, I can't give you a reason . . . so broken up . . . I give up . . . so you know . . . here I go . . . try to get to you . . . only one . . . let go . . . gets me like you do . . . my only, my only one . . ."
Light . . . that which I've not seen in eons now . . . I do miss it so gravely. Cold . . . my hands are numb . . . these bars all around me are as ice . . . I must resist touching them. One . . . all it takes to make a difference. Love . . . I have killed the love for one . . . the love for another is disappearing . . . I know not what to do. Quiet . . . you're quiet around me . . . and I do so wonder why . . . there was a time when I cared about what you thought . . . but that time has been long gone . . . you're nothing but a memory to me . . . that's all you'll ever be. Birth . . . that which begins it for one . . . begins the journey that you can't escape. Death . . . ends it for one . . . that which you cannot escape . . . and you wish to escape it. Fear . . . to fear is to give in to weakness . . . what is weakness when you have no fear . . . a lost cause. " . . . shot me down as I flew by . . . sometimes . . . you forget where the heart is . . . answer no to these questions . . . learn a lesson . . . you're not listening now . . . something's missin' . . . where the heart is . . . take you away from that empty apartment . . . someday . . . if ever you love'd me . . . it's okay . . ." ". . . something real . . . gave me all of yourself . . . I'm gonna show you how I feel . . . who cares if you don't like it . . . go ahead . . . you know just what you wanna do . . ." " . . . I'm hating what she's wearing . . . can't wait 'til they get what they deserve . . . your hand on my girlfriend . . . is that . . . I wish you'd do that again . . . leave here limping . . . there goes the next contestant . . ." " . . . well I wanted you . . . to myself . . . you got off everytime you got onto me . . . favorable slavery . . . wasn't really right . . . we were good in bed . . . fight for all the . . . reasons . . . it's a little hard to leave . . . you know my friends . . . know your enemies . . . said to me . . . I got off everytime you got on to me . . . insanity . . . it wasn't meant to be . . . I guess it wasn't what I wanted . . . wasn't really what I thought . . . I want it all to go away . . . go away . . ."