so i sit here!!!
well im sort of sad....
not sort of i am!
im sad because i want to be with aaron right now ohhing and awwing!!!
im sad because i dont feel anyone else hurting but me!!!
im happy i didnt go to the fireworks now because someone else did!!!! im also very sad because i wish he was taking me and not nader and or meeting up with all his NEW peeps!
im sad because i wrote him an email....but i never get responses!
im sad because i feel like maybe deep down he wants to give me another chance but he said he has to stick with what he said Friday night!!! i dont think that is fair when we both want the same thing!!! then again you are also telling me that you just dont want to be with me anymore!!!
Im so pissed off!!!
i wish if i cried that aaron would come willingly on his own to come hug me and tell me everything is going to work itself out in the end!!!
I wish that i never picked up the phone on friday!!!
I wish i didnt feel so alone!!!
i wish i had friends that had a similiar schedule like mine!!!
i wish i was somewhere else....far away from here...but not alone with one other person!
I have realized that i have caused alot of shit!!!
I have realized that im not perfect!!! NEVER WILL BE!!!!
i wish i had more people who cared about me!!!!
i wish the people who say they care about me would just hold me until i fall asleep and die!!!
i wish i was dead!! life really isnt worth all this!!!!
everytime i get in the car i wish someone would just ram into my car and hurt me!!! i cant just cause the accident...i need someone else to be the stupid one!!!
i wish sometimes i had enough courage to change life forever!!! but i dont and i guess in a way thats a good thing!!!
i hope when i have kids they arent like me!!!
i wish i could just let go!!! i want to end!!!!
not sort of i am!
im sad because i want to be with aaron right now ohhing and awwing!!!
im sad because i dont feel anyone else hurting but me!!!
im happy i didnt go to the fireworks now because someone else did!!!! im also very sad because i wish he was taking me and not nader and or meeting up with all his NEW peeps!
im sad because i wrote him an email....but i never get responses!
im sad because i feel like maybe deep down he wants to give me another chance but he said he has to stick with what he said Friday night!!! i dont think that is fair when we both want the same thing!!! then again you are also telling me that you just dont want to be with me anymore!!!
Im so pissed off!!!
i wish if i cried that aaron would come willingly on his own to come hug me and tell me everything is going to work itself out in the end!!!
I wish that i never picked up the phone on friday!!!
I wish i didnt feel so alone!!!
i wish i had friends that had a similiar schedule like mine!!!
i wish i was somewhere else....far away from here...but not alone with one other person!
I have realized that i have caused alot of shit!!!
I have realized that im not perfect!!! NEVER WILL BE!!!!
i wish i had more people who cared about me!!!!
i wish the people who say they care about me would just hold me until i fall asleep and die!!!
i wish i was dead!! life really isnt worth all this!!!!
everytime i get in the car i wish someone would just ram into my car and hurt me!!! i cant just cause the accident...i need someone else to be the stupid one!!!
i wish sometimes i had enough courage to change life forever!!! but i dont and i guess in a way thats a good thing!!!
i hope when i have kids they arent like me!!!
i wish i could just let go!!! i want to end!!!!