grrrr....
life, oh life...what the hell? Today, I am asking myself,"Is this really it?" Life is so repetitive, like some cycle of profound never-ending stupidity...I work my 40 hours, get my paycheck every 14 days, disperse my minuscule funds amongst my intimidating creditors, and start the whole mess over again. There is nothing out of the usual, nothing resemblant of a surprise. No magic? Why was life so exciting when I was young? Wasn't it the promise of adulthood that so excited me once upon a time? All I long for anymore is to revert to my childhood days. The days where I had no bills, no job, no politics, no pressure, my family was sane, my parents were together, you know, the drama-free days. Where did all that go?
It's not that I am not grateful for what I DO have. I suppose, it's just this overwhelming feeling that all of my efforts are getting me nowhere. And all these realizations keep hitting me, simple things, that I never really thought were true and are. For example, people...god...people, they suck. They really do. Human beings are back-stabbing malicious locusts that destroy everything in their path. And this crap about 'preserving human life', as if we're the only being worth being alive...why is human life the only life that is important? People are major liars...and i am starting to believe that there is no such things as honest people, or true friends. I've known people for years, that lie to my face and then brag about it later. And true friends? What is that? My best friend is my sister, I figure she at least HAS to stick around. There is no such thing as a true friend, because true would imply perfection or something near perfection...alas no one is perfect. I think i'll revert from saying true, the label 'best friend' at least leaves some room for screw-ups and shortcomings. Maybe there are honest people, I'm not sure, but my faith in humankind is a little low today. Sometimes, I think people forget that there is a bigger picture. I just want to yell at them to grow up, stop being so selfish, you're not the only being on this planet that matters. And no, this post is not directed towards any one specific person, so please...no drama and no offense meant.
It's not that I am not grateful for what I DO have. I suppose, it's just this overwhelming feeling that all of my efforts are getting me nowhere. And all these realizations keep hitting me, simple things, that I never really thought were true and are. For example, people...god...people, they suck. They really do. Human beings are back-stabbing malicious locusts that destroy everything in their path. And this crap about 'preserving human life', as if we're the only being worth being alive...why is human life the only life that is important? People are major liars...and i am starting to believe that there is no such things as honest people, or true friends. I've known people for years, that lie to my face and then brag about it later. And true friends? What is that? My best friend is my sister, I figure she at least HAS to stick around. There is no such thing as a true friend, because true would imply perfection or something near perfection...alas no one is perfect. I think i'll revert from saying true, the label 'best friend' at least leaves some room for screw-ups and shortcomings. Maybe there are honest people, I'm not sure, but my faith in humankind is a little low today. Sometimes, I think people forget that there is a bigger picture. I just want to yell at them to grow up, stop being so selfish, you're not the only being on this planet that matters. And no, this post is not directed towards any one specific person, so please...no drama and no offense meant.