thoughts

[nobodysangel24]

i'm afraid of what might happen.
i'm afraid he'll hurt me again.
i'm afraid too much time has passed.
i'm afraid we've changed too much.
i'm afraid i'll get too involved.
i'm afraid things won't be better.

i wish i could stop thinking about him, but i can't.
it has consumed me in the last few days.
i wish things could just be easy, but it's not.
it never was easy for us.
i wish all these feelings hadn't been stirred up, but they have been.
it will be hard to put them away again.

i've missed him in the last two years, but i told myself i didn't.
i've tucked away our past and tried to forget everything.
i failed, but i think i put up a good front-sometimes.
i don't know how to continue, now that things have started.
i want us to be close again, like we were in the past.
i guess only time will tell us, how it all will be.