lost...
So i don't really know what to think anymore, things seem to be falling apart and in place at the same time.
How is it now that I end up in this situation in my life. Everything is falling away yet new beginnings seem to be arising, I hate the way things are though. What I wouldn't give to just live some kind of normal life. I fear that I am not strong enough to survive. I don't know how I've made it this far. I hate feeling so lost, afraid and worthless, I hate how you made me feel that way everyday. You say you dont understand me, what I'm doing but you don't see that everyday you kill me. I NEED THIS. This escape, a sort of redemption from myself and you.
I want things to be calm again, I hurt inside everyday because of the choices I've made, but I still feel to numb to cry. I still cry though, in my sleep or when no one is looking. I feel weak. I don't want things to be like this, I want you to love me again.
I'm shaken and torn by recent events, I feel abused. Mostly I'm cautious now. .Again I feel weak.
I don't know how I am going to live, Things will be harder than expected, I don't have that much money. I just have to keep telling myself this is for the best, I can do this and that everything will be alright.
I just have to tell myself to keep holding on.....
How is it now that I end up in this situation in my life. Everything is falling away yet new beginnings seem to be arising, I hate the way things are though. What I wouldn't give to just live some kind of normal life. I fear that I am not strong enough to survive. I don't know how I've made it this far. I hate feeling so lost, afraid and worthless, I hate how you made me feel that way everyday. You say you dont understand me, what I'm doing but you don't see that everyday you kill me. I NEED THIS. This escape, a sort of redemption from myself and you.
I want things to be calm again, I hurt inside everyday because of the choices I've made, but I still feel to numb to cry. I still cry though, in my sleep or when no one is looking. I feel weak. I don't want things to be like this, I want you to love me again.
I'm shaken and torn by recent events, I feel abused. Mostly I'm cautious now. .Again I feel weak.
I don't know how I am going to live, Things will be harder than expected, I don't have that much money. I just have to keep telling myself this is for the best, I can do this and that everything will be alright.
I just have to tell myself to keep holding on.....