I cant see my tomorrow and yesterdays come and gone...
Sometimes I think things have gone too far, that I can do nothing but continue on the path I'm going. That everything is laid out in front of me, the path for my journey set in stone. That somehow my past has already determined my future. I can't help but wonder sometimes, will I succeed? Not only financially and carrier wise, but personally.
Will I be able to be happy.
My brain rattles with thoughts and possibilities for the future, screaming to do more, willing to do less. Indecisive and yet so clear as what it is I want. Sometimes I feel like I have to will myself to be passionate about something, anything. As long as I have ambition, some sort of goal.While the other more impractical half of me just wants to be free.
I see so much potential in those around me. And wonder do they see the same in me? Do I even have it? Is it even there. I'm so scared of failure. Expectations haunt me like a bad case of herpes. Always there but popping up at the most inconvenient and least expected of times.
I know things will eventually turn out ok, but that thought still doesn't ease my racing mind.
Will I be able to be happy.
My brain rattles with thoughts and possibilities for the future, screaming to do more, willing to do less. Indecisive and yet so clear as what it is I want. Sometimes I feel like I have to will myself to be passionate about something, anything. As long as I have ambition, some sort of goal.While the other more impractical half of me just wants to be free.
I see so much potential in those around me. And wonder do they see the same in me? Do I even have it? Is it even there. I'm so scared of failure. Expectations haunt me like a bad case of herpes. Always there but popping up at the most inconvenient and least expected of times.
I know things will eventually turn out ok, but that thought still doesn't ease my racing mind.