I remember a time... when words didn't have double meanings and things were never complicated
I recently read something on my space that got me thinking. It made me think about my current situation, how I feel about myself and my life in general and how society as a whole are a bunch of ungrateful fucks.
My entry
For everyone, there was a time, before the drama and drugs, before relationships and depression. Before suicide, rape or murder. Before abuse, hate and fear. Before the worry of not knowing where your next meal would come from, or where you were sleeping that night or how you were going to pay your bills. If we travel far enough back in time, we were all there at one point.
Spinning faster and faster, the world becomes a blur or colors smashed together until your knees give out and you find yourself falling into the pillow of grass watching as the world become solid again. I remember where life had a simple point.
~Eyes once wide with sparkling innocence, truth and love
With Halloween and red gummy bears
Believing in the tooth fairy and angels
Singing to the radio and dancing in her underwear
Making snow angels and drinking grandmas Cocoa
Once a innocent youth, uncorrupted, unblemished
This wonderful truth, not yet grown up
Now she hides all of her pain behind smiles that were built for glass houses
And intentions that were once pure.
Now darkness has a bitter taste and the vodka is sweet
With flowing black rivers and restless nights she lives in this world
Of lies and broken dreams
She resides in a world of Barbie doll perfection and toxic air
Baby... baby....baby....where did your life go? Where did the love go?
Where did you go.....
Where does everything change from pillow fights and Kool-aid to gun fights and alcohol? When do we allow ourselves to be so consumed by these posins that we forget what its like to just have fun? To laugh just for the sake of laughing and not because were so stoned everything is funny. To do something because its the right thing. Why do we allow ourselves to take good, simple things for granted and only focus on the bad. When do we allow the lies to dominate our thoughts and manipulate us as chess pieces on a playing board.Stratigizing our next move to fool the rest of the world. At what point do we become the scum we like to call adult humans.
We call ourselves civilized yet there are thoes who sleep with people for money to buy crack to get their fix. Thoes that would kill for a quick buck, There are some of us who can't live without the attention of others to satisfy our needs for self-worth. Intrested in only what we want we will destroy all that we have built.Our morals and values untimely become as altered as our perceptions on reality. Our skewed world views and every day working lives.
We allow ourselves to become sucked into once stream mentality.
What ever happened to free thinking and expression? Even our music sounds are standardized. All the same theme.. all the same concept… Riff, riff… sing about how life sucks, and how lonely we are. Riff … drum solo.. Riff. Rap culture is even worse, we focus our ideals on making women objects and glorifying violence.
American culture as a whole is a joke. We don’t have culture. Culture is defined as - A)enlightenment and sophistication acquired through education and exposure to the arts.
Do I consider crack, prostitution and gangs cultured? No. Do I consider greed and a economey dependant on that concept, certanily not. We as humans have become so accoustomed to this lifestyle we cant get out. Materillistic things and social images mean everything. Why? Why have we allow ourselves to become such vile creatures?
"We just scratch on day to day
With nothing but matchbooks and
Sarcasm in our pockets
And all we are waiting for
Is for something worth waiting for "
.....
Let's stop praying for someone
To save us and start saving ourselves
What have we become....
Close your eyes...And go back...
Before the Internet or the AIM
Before semi automatics and crack
Before SEGA or Super Nintendo...
Way back...
I'm talkin' bout hide and go seek at dusk.
Red light, Green light.
Playing kickball & dodgeball until your porch light came on.
Mother May I?
Red Rover
Hula Hoops
Running through the sprinkler
Happy meals
Wait...
Watchin' Saturday Morning cartoons
or what about legends of the hidden temple, global guts, double dare, and who, ARE YOU AFFRAID OF THE DARK!
could forget Snick
Fat Albert, Road Runner, Smurfs, Picture Pages, G-Force & He-Man Wonder Woman
& Scooby Doo Underoos
Playing Dukes of Hazard
Catchin' lightning bugs in a jar
Christmas morning...
Your first day of school
Bedtime Prayers and Goodnight Kisses
Climbing trees
Getting an ice cream off the ice cream truck
A million mosquito bites and sticky fingers
Jumpin' down the steps
Jumpin' on the bed
Pillow fights
Runnin ' till you were out of breath
Laughing so hard that your stomach hurt
Being tired from playin'
Your first crush...
Rainy days at school meant playing "Heads up 7UP" in the classroom Remember
that?
I'm not finished yet...
Kool-Aid was the drink of the summer
Giving your friends a ride on your handlebars
Wearing your new shoes on the first day of school
Class Field Trips
When nearly everyone's mom was at home when the kids got there.
When a quarter seemed like a fair allowance, and another quarter a Miracle.
When your parents took you to McDonalds and you were so cool.
I want to go back to the time when...
Decisions were made by going "eeny-meeny-miney-mo"
Mistakes were corrected by simply exclaiming, "do over!"
"Race issue" meant arguing about who ran the fastest.
Money issues were handled by whoever was the banker in "monopoly"
Catching fireflies could happily occupy an entire evening
It wasn't odd to have two or three "best" friends.
Being old, referred to anyone over 20.
The worst thing you could catch from the opposite sex was cooties.
Nobody was prettier than Mom
Scrapes and bruises were kissed and made better
It was a big deal to finally be tall enough to ride the "big people" rides at
the amusement park.
Getting a foot of snow was a dream come true.
Abilities were discovered because of a "double-dog-dare"
Spinning around, getting dizzy and falling down was cause for giggles.
The worst embarrassment was being picked last for a team.
Water balloons were the ultimate, ultimate weapon.
Older siblings were the worst tormentors, but also the fiercest protectors.
If you can remember most or all of these, then you have LIVED!!!
My entry
For everyone, there was a time, before the drama and drugs, before relationships and depression. Before suicide, rape or murder. Before abuse, hate and fear. Before the worry of not knowing where your next meal would come from, or where you were sleeping that night or how you were going to pay your bills. If we travel far enough back in time, we were all there at one point.
Spinning faster and faster, the world becomes a blur or colors smashed together until your knees give out and you find yourself falling into the pillow of grass watching as the world become solid again. I remember where life had a simple point.
~Eyes once wide with sparkling innocence, truth and love
With Halloween and red gummy bears
Believing in the tooth fairy and angels
Singing to the radio and dancing in her underwear
Making snow angels and drinking grandmas Cocoa
Once a innocent youth, uncorrupted, unblemished
This wonderful truth, not yet grown up
Now she hides all of her pain behind smiles that were built for glass houses
And intentions that were once pure.
Now darkness has a bitter taste and the vodka is sweet
With flowing black rivers and restless nights she lives in this world
Of lies and broken dreams
She resides in a world of Barbie doll perfection and toxic air
Baby... baby....baby....where did your life go? Where did the love go?
Where did you go.....
Where does everything change from pillow fights and Kool-aid to gun fights and alcohol? When do we allow ourselves to be so consumed by these posins that we forget what its like to just have fun? To laugh just for the sake of laughing and not because were so stoned everything is funny. To do something because its the right thing. Why do we allow ourselves to take good, simple things for granted and only focus on the bad. When do we allow the lies to dominate our thoughts and manipulate us as chess pieces on a playing board.Stratigizing our next move to fool the rest of the world. At what point do we become the scum we like to call adult humans.
We call ourselves civilized yet there are thoes who sleep with people for money to buy crack to get their fix. Thoes that would kill for a quick buck, There are some of us who can't live without the attention of others to satisfy our needs for self-worth. Intrested in only what we want we will destroy all that we have built.Our morals and values untimely become as altered as our perceptions on reality. Our skewed world views and every day working lives.
We allow ourselves to become sucked into once stream mentality.
What ever happened to free thinking and expression? Even our music sounds are standardized. All the same theme.. all the same concept… Riff, riff… sing about how life sucks, and how lonely we are. Riff … drum solo.. Riff. Rap culture is even worse, we focus our ideals on making women objects and glorifying violence.
American culture as a whole is a joke. We don’t have culture. Culture is defined as - A)enlightenment and sophistication acquired through education and exposure to the arts.
Do I consider crack, prostitution and gangs cultured? No. Do I consider greed and a economey dependant on that concept, certanily not. We as humans have become so accoustomed to this lifestyle we cant get out. Materillistic things and social images mean everything. Why? Why have we allow ourselves to become such vile creatures?
"We just scratch on day to day
With nothing but matchbooks and
Sarcasm in our pockets
And all we are waiting for
Is for something worth waiting for "
.....
Let's stop praying for someone
To save us and start saving ourselves
What have we become....
Close your eyes...And go back...
Before the Internet or the AIM
Before semi automatics and crack
Before SEGA or Super Nintendo...
Way back...
I'm talkin' bout hide and go seek at dusk.
Red light, Green light.
Playing kickball & dodgeball until your porch light came on.
Mother May I?
Red Rover
Hula Hoops
Running through the sprinkler
Happy meals
Wait...
Watchin' Saturday Morning cartoons
or what about legends of the hidden temple, global guts, double dare, and who, ARE YOU AFFRAID OF THE DARK!
could forget Snick
Fat Albert, Road Runner, Smurfs, Picture Pages, G-Force & He-Man Wonder Woman
& Scooby Doo Underoos
Playing Dukes of Hazard
Catchin' lightning bugs in a jar
Christmas morning...
Your first day of school
Bedtime Prayers and Goodnight Kisses
Climbing trees
Getting an ice cream off the ice cream truck
A million mosquito bites and sticky fingers
Jumpin' down the steps
Jumpin' on the bed
Pillow fights
Runnin ' till you were out of breath
Laughing so hard that your stomach hurt
Being tired from playin'
Your first crush...
Rainy days at school meant playing "Heads up 7UP" in the classroom Remember
that?
I'm not finished yet...
Kool-Aid was the drink of the summer
Giving your friends a ride on your handlebars
Wearing your new shoes on the first day of school
Class Field Trips
When nearly everyone's mom was at home when the kids got there.
When a quarter seemed like a fair allowance, and another quarter a Miracle.
When your parents took you to McDonalds and you were so cool.
I want to go back to the time when...
Decisions were made by going "eeny-meeny-miney-mo"
Mistakes were corrected by simply exclaiming, "do over!"
"Race issue" meant arguing about who ran the fastest.
Money issues were handled by whoever was the banker in "monopoly"
Catching fireflies could happily occupy an entire evening
It wasn't odd to have two or three "best" friends.
Being old, referred to anyone over 20.
The worst thing you could catch from the opposite sex was cooties.
Nobody was prettier than Mom
Scrapes and bruises were kissed and made better
It was a big deal to finally be tall enough to ride the "big people" rides at
the amusement park.
Getting a foot of snow was a dream come true.
Abilities were discovered because of a "double-dog-dare"
Spinning around, getting dizzy and falling down was cause for giggles.
The worst embarrassment was being picked last for a team.
Water balloons were the ultimate, ultimate weapon.
Older siblings were the worst tormentors, but also the fiercest protectors.
If you can remember most or all of these, then you have LIVED!!!