when life is hard you have to change...
these past couple of days have been so fucking terrible. ally forgot to pay the power bill i gave her money for so our power was shut off for 2 days. this morning i woke up to the worst pain i've ever felt in my life and the most potent amount of blood i've ever seen slide from my body.
i don't know how to feel about that. i mean, i don't want babies and this was the best thing that could have happened, but i still saw our child all over my hands.
i spent my entire day sitting on the couch in my pajamas, popping pain killers, and clutching my knees.
this is absurd, how can you cry over something you never even knew you had?
i got my labret pierced. it's mighty potent.
there is so much on my mind. everything is changing. you'd think i'd be used to that by now. i've been uprooted and shoved into completely different situations 5 times in the past 6 months. i long for something stable. i want to live with you on the beach. i want to wake up everyday and see you. i want to smell your skin on my pillows. i want to hold your hand as i fall asleep. i want you telling me i'm beautiful. i want to sweat with you. i want to laugh with you. i want your shoulder to be the one i cry on.
and when your deepest thoughts are broken,
keep on dreamin boy, cause when you stop dreamin it's time to die
i don't know how to feel about that. i mean, i don't want babies and this was the best thing that could have happened, but i still saw our child all over my hands.
i spent my entire day sitting on the couch in my pajamas, popping pain killers, and clutching my knees.
this is absurd, how can you cry over something you never even knew you had?
i got my labret pierced. it's mighty potent.
there is so much on my mind. everything is changing. you'd think i'd be used to that by now. i've been uprooted and shoved into completely different situations 5 times in the past 6 months. i long for something stable. i want to live with you on the beach. i want to wake up everyday and see you. i want to smell your skin on my pillows. i want to hold your hand as i fall asleep. i want you telling me i'm beautiful. i want to sweat with you. i want to laugh with you. i want your shoulder to be the one i cry on.
and when your deepest thoughts are broken,
keep on dreamin boy, cause when you stop dreamin it's time to die