No Apologies: Caged Jealousy 4/?
Since that day I didn't know what to about him
for some reason my heart has rejected (him)
His form is changing, far away but all too close
Should I wear a mask, so I can hide my face drawn with tension
when I'm with him.
my heart lost in my body will someday leave me
Dear Mr. Niimura,
It is our pleasure to accept you into the family. We would like to see you at our meeting place for your instruction and if any authorites are called you will find yourself at a rather bitter end of a rather terrible situation...
We look forward to seeing you there.
Sincerely,
Mr. Murata
How long had I been here...In this retched business.
How long back had it been...I couldn't remember a time when I was stuck here...
The life wasn't all it was made out to be...It was like a cage. You had to follow the rules of those higher up or you would be trounced on...
So I did. And proudly I never once made a total fool of myself. Until...
The idiot son of the man who'd brought me into this buisness made me.
For that I hated him. And the minute I could get my revenge...Get even.
Deeply jealous will you always be this cold blooded?
Even now I don't want to forget the abuse of my youth.
"Kyo, I will ask you once more...What were you doing there?
My eyes slowly rose to glare at the cop who was glaring down at me from his spot on the other side of the interrogation table...He was simple looking enough. I could remember his ridiculous face easily...Get a few men to destroy him once this was over and my life would go back to the way it was before...That asshole ruined everything.
I can't laugh like I used to,
I'm not the same person...
Kyo...What were you doing at that place? You do realise it was...a normal meeting place for mafiosi? Die had tried too, good old Dr. Die...It had been such a waste and in a way I could easily blame myself for his failure in the higher up situations....
Yes, the life outside of the one I was living...The one of crime was just as built up as the one the normal average day person seemed to live...Follow thier rules and you don't get hurt.
The man slammed his hands down on the interrogation table, making my head snap up at him again to glare evenly at him as he glared down at me, "Tell me!" he ordered, "You aren't even really named Kyo...Are you?"
"..." I would get this guy to tell me his name and then I'd report him back to Mr. Murat-
"Okay..." he seemed to lean back from the table as if giving up...As the solitary light in the interrogation office wiped over his face I saw the aggravatingly strict curves that formed it and the unruly gold brown hair that lay atop his head...
"...Just give up." I said simply, "You'll be dead by tomorrow night."
"...I guess." he sighed and yet he seemed to be smiling, I frowned darkly at the sight.
"What do you have to be happy about?" I snapped at him making him look at me in surprise, "You aren't going to get anything out of me or of anyone. Your the law and no one really likes your side-"
"Funny to say, that's true..." he chuckled and I grit my teeth out of aggravation, "But in all fairness...no one really likes your side either." he grinned at me, "They just pretend too."
"...What do you kno-"
"Only as much as I've read." he admitted and plopped down in the seat across from me, "...and besides hating me won't get you anywhere."
"...Why's that?" I was willing to play his game if only he didn't get anything out of me.
He seemed to hum lightly to himself and tap his noggin knowingly, "Well, in all fairness I don't really know...why you'd want too. I'm an idiot. I'm not gonna get anything out of you. And of course, your in love with this work-"
"I'm not in love with it." I snarled.
"Yes, well...I guess one would assume."
"You assumed wrong." I glowered at him, folding my arms.
"...So, Kyo..." the agent sighed and leaned down against the table to stare up at me, "If you don't like it...why work for it?"
"...What other choice do I have, genius?"
"...Well, you could always...work here..." the man smiled and I was up.
"I don't think so." I said walking to the door, "I don't work with idiots-"
"...But if you did...Wouldn't that put you incharge over all of us?" with that long pause, my hand on the door knob...I realized he was right...Really right. The security guard glared warningly back at me from right outside that door...But if I were to work on this side...I could control that muscle head and everyone else...I could...
Look at me being unwilling, fiercely and then gently, a forced decision
which I can't say I've made to you.
I turned back to the other man who smiled knowingly at me, "Hey, the name is Kaoru." he said, grinning like crazy.
I think I've found a break in this filthy cage.
A wounded heart will fade away
the love is destroying you, in full bloom with the flowers.
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"Good morning..." the leer is anything but what I need to hear at the moment. I peek open an eye, I feel my head and vision swoon together...Everything isn't really coming into focus...I've obviously been completely whacked out.
"...you.." I grunt and the snicker is only followed by that dizzying haze that comes with being knocked out and drugged...
"Miss me, kitty cat?" I growl lowly and glare out through the bars at the man I could only just make out. He wasn't the one I was truly thinking of...since his father was no longer alive but...
"...you..."
"Is that all you can say, pussycat?" he teases and I try to stand only to feel a sharp jab in my side, "Aw, did I forget to mention your not leaving." I crumble to the ground in the cage and just glare up as best I can...I'm shirtless for some fucking reason...And he's certainly amused.
"...I hate..."
"Ah, but I already knew you hated me." he laughs, "after all the little stunt you pulled before on me certainly was enough wasn't it?" his dark eyes are still bright somehow and reflect so much loatheing I need to lower my head...."So what? You thought you could hurt me again by taking it all away? Again?"
"...I fucking hate..."
"Don't even speak you asshole." he leans in toward the bars, I wish I had the strength to strike out at him, "...You tried to take her away. And for that I'll kill you here. You son of a bitch..."
"...Brother?" a young man I don't recognize stands up beside him, "We musn't kill him off yet...the police get whiff of it..."
"I know, Kohta." responds the one I hate, "...We'll let him starve of his own accord."
"Asshole!" I growl.
"See you, Kyo. It was a pleasure seeing you again..." he turns away and I stand up wanting to get the hell out of here...a key, something- but another jab to my side and I'm down again-
"...you bastard...." I growl reaching out after him, my bloody shaking hand in front of me, "...Kirito."
for some reason my heart has rejected (him)
His form is changing, far away but all too close
Should I wear a mask, so I can hide my face drawn with tension
when I'm with him.
my heart lost in my body will someday leave me
Dear Mr. Niimura,
It is our pleasure to accept you into the family. We would like to see you at our meeting place for your instruction and if any authorites are called you will find yourself at a rather bitter end of a rather terrible situation...
We look forward to seeing you there.
Sincerely,
Mr. Murata
How long had I been here...In this retched business.
How long back had it been...I couldn't remember a time when I was stuck here...
The life wasn't all it was made out to be...It was like a cage. You had to follow the rules of those higher up or you would be trounced on...
So I did. And proudly I never once made a total fool of myself. Until...
The idiot son of the man who'd brought me into this buisness made me.
For that I hated him. And the minute I could get my revenge...Get even.
Deeply jealous will you always be this cold blooded?
Even now I don't want to forget the abuse of my youth.
"Kyo, I will ask you once more...What were you doing there?
My eyes slowly rose to glare at the cop who was glaring down at me from his spot on the other side of the interrogation table...He was simple looking enough. I could remember his ridiculous face easily...Get a few men to destroy him once this was over and my life would go back to the way it was before...That asshole ruined everything.
I can't laugh like I used to,
I'm not the same person...
Kyo...What were you doing at that place? You do realise it was...a normal meeting place for mafiosi? Die had tried too, good old Dr. Die...It had been such a waste and in a way I could easily blame myself for his failure in the higher up situations....
Yes, the life outside of the one I was living...The one of crime was just as built up as the one the normal average day person seemed to live...Follow thier rules and you don't get hurt.
The man slammed his hands down on the interrogation table, making my head snap up at him again to glare evenly at him as he glared down at me, "Tell me!" he ordered, "You aren't even really named Kyo...Are you?"
"..." I would get this guy to tell me his name and then I'd report him back to Mr. Murat-
"Okay..." he seemed to lean back from the table as if giving up...As the solitary light in the interrogation office wiped over his face I saw the aggravatingly strict curves that formed it and the unruly gold brown hair that lay atop his head...
"...Just give up." I said simply, "You'll be dead by tomorrow night."
"...I guess." he sighed and yet he seemed to be smiling, I frowned darkly at the sight.
"What do you have to be happy about?" I snapped at him making him look at me in surprise, "You aren't going to get anything out of me or of anyone. Your the law and no one really likes your side-"
"Funny to say, that's true..." he chuckled and I grit my teeth out of aggravation, "But in all fairness...no one really likes your side either." he grinned at me, "They just pretend too."
"...What do you kno-"
"Only as much as I've read." he admitted and plopped down in the seat across from me, "...and besides hating me won't get you anywhere."
"...Why's that?" I was willing to play his game if only he didn't get anything out of me.
He seemed to hum lightly to himself and tap his noggin knowingly, "Well, in all fairness I don't really know...why you'd want too. I'm an idiot. I'm not gonna get anything out of you. And of course, your in love with this work-"
"I'm not in love with it." I snarled.
"Yes, well...I guess one would assume."
"You assumed wrong." I glowered at him, folding my arms.
"...So, Kyo..." the agent sighed and leaned down against the table to stare up at me, "If you don't like it...why work for it?"
"...What other choice do I have, genius?"
"...Well, you could always...work here..." the man smiled and I was up.
"I don't think so." I said walking to the door, "I don't work with idiots-"
"...But if you did...Wouldn't that put you incharge over all of us?" with that long pause, my hand on the door knob...I realized he was right...Really right. The security guard glared warningly back at me from right outside that door...But if I were to work on this side...I could control that muscle head and everyone else...I could...
Look at me being unwilling, fiercely and then gently, a forced decision
which I can't say I've made to you.
I turned back to the other man who smiled knowingly at me, "Hey, the name is Kaoru." he said, grinning like crazy.
I think I've found a break in this filthy cage.
A wounded heart will fade away
the love is destroying you, in full bloom with the flowers.
--------------------------------------------------------------
"Good morning..." the leer is anything but what I need to hear at the moment. I peek open an eye, I feel my head and vision swoon together...Everything isn't really coming into focus...I've obviously been completely whacked out.
"...you.." I grunt and the snicker is only followed by that dizzying haze that comes with being knocked out and drugged...
"Miss me, kitty cat?" I growl lowly and glare out through the bars at the man I could only just make out. He wasn't the one I was truly thinking of...since his father was no longer alive but...
"...you..."
"Is that all you can say, pussycat?" he teases and I try to stand only to feel a sharp jab in my side, "Aw, did I forget to mention your not leaving." I crumble to the ground in the cage and just glare up as best I can...I'm shirtless for some fucking reason...And he's certainly amused.
"...I hate..."
"Ah, but I already knew you hated me." he laughs, "after all the little stunt you pulled before on me certainly was enough wasn't it?" his dark eyes are still bright somehow and reflect so much loatheing I need to lower my head...."So what? You thought you could hurt me again by taking it all away? Again?"
"...I fucking hate..."
"Don't even speak you asshole." he leans in toward the bars, I wish I had the strength to strike out at him, "...You tried to take her away. And for that I'll kill you here. You son of a bitch..."
"...Brother?" a young man I don't recognize stands up beside him, "We musn't kill him off yet...the police get whiff of it..."
"I know, Kohta." responds the one I hate, "...We'll let him starve of his own accord."
"Asshole!" I growl.
"See you, Kyo. It was a pleasure seeing you again..." he turns away and I stand up wanting to get the hell out of here...a key, something- but another jab to my side and I'm down again-
"...you bastard...." I growl reaching out after him, my bloody shaking hand in front of me, "...Kirito."