i'm about to lose it...
i dont know how much more of this crap i can stand. i hate my job in terre haute, i should have quit and found a new job forever ago. everything has been going so well with school. i love school... but i hate this job. i hate living in terre haute anymore just because it is so far away from where i want to be and what i want to do. i never get to hang out with any of my new friends in indy because i dont live there. anymore all i do is work all night, sleep for a few hours when i get home from work, and then goto school all evening. then i get back home from school just in time to be late for work like i'm going to be tonight. then i have to be at work and listen to my stupid ass department head tell me and the only 2 other people on my shift that are worth a damn about how much we suck and need to work harder because her and the assistant wont do jack shit. every night at work i get more and more shit dumped on me to do so that they can all just fuck off all night. i'm so tired tonight i feel sick. i want to call in but i know i wont get away with it tonight if i do. part of me doesnt care anymore and just wants to fucking never go back. deal with being broke to shit for a few weeks. soon i'll be out of this shit job and living in indy. then i wont have to drive 90 miles to school. then i'll get paid to teach people late high school and early college level math. i'll get so much time back for myself i can finally maybe be happy again. i've been sleeping like crap for so long i've forgotten what a good night's sleep feels like. even when i'm off i cant sleep for more than a few hours in bursts just because i'm so fucked up i keep waking up all the damn time. i'm tired of taking naps in between school and work. i want to be a normal fucking person again.