15 Things to Say
So I did the 15 Things you want to say to people, but could never say to them directly thing again. Unlike the others like this, you can definitely ask me questions. I will answer direct questions even if I don't really feel comfortable with them. (that's a hint, btw...if you want to know something...ask me straight out or you will never know!) SO, here are 15 different people:
- I think you are an amazing person and I truly admire you. You can never know how much you have helped me through some tough situations, but thank you. I know we've been pretty busy this semester, but when we have gotten together it was great. I hope you know how much you truly are appreciated
- I barely know you and you probably don't even care about me at all…but somehow I've fallen for you. That's saying a lot, as I usually fall for close friends. From what I've seen and experienced with you, though, you're a great guy and we seem to have some things in common. I guess I fall for people I can relate to.
- I only met you very recently and at first I thought you didn't really like me, but now I feel like we could become pretty good friends if given the chance. I know working together was probably hard and frustrating at times, but I think it was worth it and it worked out extremely well. I wish we could spend a little more time getting to know each other and maybe learn a little more about each others' interests.
- I've known you for a while, but it was a pretty distant "knowing." I truly have enjoyed getting to know you over the past couple of years and I hope we can continue to hang out and keep in touch.
- Working with you was great because you already had a lot of experience and all I really needed to do was tweak your work. It's not often that I get to work with guys and it's nice to work with one who knows what they're doing already. I'm glad to have met you, because you are a great person and I enjoy talking with you. I hope we can hang out more in the future or at least keep in touch. I also envy your attitude. When you want something, you're not afraid to go get it. I wish I could do that, but I can never pull up that courage.
- I have had a blast getting to know you. We have known each other for such a short time, but I feel like we've known each other our entire lives. It's amazing when you meet a person you connect to immediately and that's basically what happened with us. We are on the same page on so many levels it astounds me every time I think about it. Thank you so much for coming into my life (wow, that wasn't cheesy at all…)
- Not gonna lie, I really wish we got to see more of each other this year. In the past we saw each other almost constantly and granted I see you a lot this year…but not really as a friend anymore. I feel like a third wheel whenever I'm around you…usually because I am. That's just really awkward for me since I hung out with you so much in the past. I'm sorry that I don't warrant your friendship without other people involved, but I suppose I deserve that now.
- Re-meeting you was definitely a world-shattering event. I had always remembered you and knew you on sight, but I was completely forgotten. When I re-met you I was worried that we wouldn't be able to keep in touch again, but we've done ok for the most part. Your friendship seems a little on and off, but I'm glad that it's there, because I do value your work and opinions. I wish felt that you could talk to me like we did one night freshmen year, but I suppose I haven't earned that yet. Liking you, I suppose, didn't help the situation as I think it made you think that I could relapse or something…but I assure you that I think of you as only a friend now.
- I've known who you were for so long I can't even remember a time I didn't. I knew you through friends, but I'm almost positive you never knew me. In that situation, I was glad to finally meet you personally and get to hang out with you almost all summer. I loved getting to know you and help each other out. I know this semester has been kind of crazy, but I'm glad it's turned out the way it did so far.
- I don't even know how to begin this thing. You and I have had a rocky relationship as far as I can tell. I've been extremely jealous of you for as long as I can remember, but of course I couldn't actually say that to you. I wish that I could be as close to some people as you are, but I'm just not your match. Maybe that's why I've always felt that you don't really like me that much, but I don't know. I still feel it…almost all the time now, really. Not that I ever see you anyway, but I won't go into that. I wish that we could hang out more…not with other people around, but just us. I guess that's asking for a lot though…
- So, yeah. I liked you…for a long time. I get that it's awkward, but I really am over that. I'm happy for you and everything you've accomplished. I still don't have a CLUE as to what was going on between us. No matter how much I think about it, it leaves me baffled every time. I wish you would talk to me more, like you used to but I suppose I will have to work back your trust as I have to with another mutual friend. I'm sorry.
- I can't even begin to describe how scared I am for you. I'm terrified out of my wits, but no one really understands and I guess I can see why. It's not REALLY dangerous, but I just can't help it. So many things can change in a matter of seconds that no one could have predicted and I'm scared that will happen. I'm happy that you have gotten out (or will eventually), but I'm still scared. I don't know how to make that go away, but I just hope you can understand how much I care for you.
- Every year our relationship has slipped further and further away. I miss so much the happy friend I used to have. I remember when you weren't a complete pessimist and when we actually had fun together. Now you just want to talk or hang out when something is wrong. You never take an interest in what I'm doing and that is one of the most depressing things that I deal with. I suppose I expect too much when I ask that you come see me for one single weekend, but I can't help it. I want to see you. I want to be that person for you and have you be that person for me again. We used to be so close that we didn't need to talk…we could just sit there and know what the other was thinking. I'm almost to the point of tears right now with the overwhelming sadness I feel when I think of what we've lost…what you've lost. You've lost your sense of hope and it scares me. I want so badly to help you, but I don't know how. I want so badly to be your friend again…not just the person you go to because you know I'll do what you want without expecting something in return…because I do expect things in return. I just don't get them.
- I don't know if I can say I miss you when I see you all the time, but I really do. I see you all the time, but only when we have to. I miss just hanging out, but that always seems to be last on everyone's minds. First comes the significant other, then school and then other friends. I never really fit into that picture anymore, unless I make it so…and then I always feel unwanted. I've almost come to the point of actually telling you how hostile towards me you feel…which I'm sure you know means I really am bothered by it. I just feel like, if you want me to go away…tell me. It will tear me up, yes, but at least I won't be wondering 24/7 what I'm doing that might or might not be pissing you off. I just miss you.
- You piss me off more than almost anyone else ever. I don't know why, but you really do. Stop badmouthing people when you're the one who's messing up. I can't stand your attitude and your conversation habits just make me want to punch you, and as I'm sure you don't know…that's saying a lot. I honestly want to scream every time I see you and I really cannot stand to be near you.