you dont have to be a scientist to do experiments

[nobighair]

remember when everything was totally fucked up and we were permadrunk and on speed all the time
we were all a bunch of miserable assholes with nothing to do
so we hung out together and made each other hurt and then tried to fix it
i love you all im sorry for everything im sorry i lost touch with (almost) everyone i've ever loved.
i want to have stretch armstrong arms so i can grab everyone and pull them in for one big fat hug.

with that said
dearest friends wherever you are these days,
get me outta this rut! ive been here too long.
if you're in a rut, i'll help get you out too.
i want to go to a stupid retarded party with all of my friends and all of those kids who i talk to just because i feel like i have to.
i want to try on many multiple outfits and hair styles until fits are thrown and shouts of "im not even going!" can be heard throughout the hallways.
i want to stay up all night and laugh and draw pictures and sing songs and dress up

its way past my bedtime.