::sighs:: just another sleepless night.
hi. im sad. i don't know why, i've been really tired cause the hangover, adn all of a sudden im just liek gr! i want to cry. gah. my mother and i went to the store to get dresses for the wedding, and besides me not wanting go at all, i baught a dress i don't like. heh. but w-e my mom said it looked so good! but im liek oh really! yey!. when in my head im liek barf! lets just leave!! heh. then on the way home incubus comes on and im liek yes, chill music, so i crank it totally up, and of course mym om gets in one of her conversation moods and starts talkin about my plugs. it made me way too upset. i will never take them out. i love them so much. shes such a bitch about my style, its not like they are huge like fuckin 5/8s or anything, they are wee-little 6's! how lame? but yea she was on my ass non-stop today. when we got home shes like do this, do that. im liek ahh hangover common!! lol i was so tired, and i just got so sad. im like this can't get much worse, well it did, she waited till frekin forever to go pick out dresses so i could.nt go out and im like so fed up. and school comes back with its sharp point in my side, killing me slowly.. in only 2 days. i need to study, or at least make "study guides", maybe even cheat sheets but who knows. im such a bad person. i hate school! i don't even need any of this stuff to be what i wanna be when i go to college, ill prob go to an art college of music. yea, just me and my piano. i'd be so ahppy, so far away form mom and pop.. and all my friends, and florida... i don't know, i just need to be away so i can miss them and love them a lot wheni get back, not hate them forever and suffer in a florida college. sheesh! ugh i wanna sleep, but i know ill be all artzy and like write or draw and then stare at my ceiling w/ the light on, and fall in the darkness of my mind with a glaze over my eyes like im dead, then all of a sudden un-fall myself and turn off the light. who knows maybe ill even call some one. but who? all my friends are out w/ boyfriends or thinking about their significant others at least. gr im such a sack of saddness. barf. barf.. barf... hm. bye.