Confussed...
I hope everyone had a good turkey day! I know I enjoyed my meal even though I am not such a big fan of turkey. It was nice to be with family and the Feld family. One of the Feld's guests had such an interesting job. Her phone kept ringing non-stop. Someone thought it was rude and asked her to politely turn it off since it was family time. She said that her phone basically was her job. She is in charge of calling hospitals/airports/pilots to coordinate the delivery of organs. So Thanksgiving night she had two calls from Columbus saying there were two livers that needed be flown to Cleveland for match donations. 2 families received a miracle, while 2 families were dealing with grief on this family day. It was the first time I really thought about how nice it was that the dysfunctional family was together under one roof and it wasn't just a day off of school to eat your hearts out. I was supposed to do homework, but you know how that one goes. So now I have no choice and must complete it now but there are too many things going through my mind.
I don't know why I am sitting here writing this. I have a million and one things that need to get done, but yet I am sitting here still wasting time. There are some thoughts running through my head that I just need to get out. I am not expecting anyone to understand them, because I am not so sure I do either.
-RIP Alex- I don't really know you. All I know is that you are that boy who sits two seats away from me in class. Today it was empty. From reading all 93 wall posts on facebook I came to the conclusion that I knew you better than I thought I did. People commented about your smile and love for life. As an outsider, I was always touched by the warm smile you would give me at such an early hour for a class. While there are only a few more classes left with Mr. Steinberg I am going to feel the void. Just when I thought I made sense of life it come crashing back down to haunt me again. What a scary cycle.
Happy Birthday, Grandma!! I miss you soooo much! I know sometimes I didn't show it and I am sorry. If only I could have those times back, but the past is the past. Some day we will make it right again.
Some people still don't have brains!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Boy, what a depressing entry. Sorry, I just needed somewhere to do a brief vent. It is an entry like this one that makes me want to do what Michelle does every night.
I don't know why I am sitting here writing this. I have a million and one things that need to get done, but yet I am sitting here still wasting time. There are some thoughts running through my head that I just need to get out. I am not expecting anyone to understand them, because I am not so sure I do either.
-RIP Alex- I don't really know you. All I know is that you are that boy who sits two seats away from me in class. Today it was empty. From reading all 93 wall posts on facebook I came to the conclusion that I knew you better than I thought I did. People commented about your smile and love for life. As an outsider, I was always touched by the warm smile you would give me at such an early hour for a class. While there are only a few more classes left with Mr. Steinberg I am going to feel the void. Just when I thought I made sense of life it come crashing back down to haunt me again. What a scary cycle.
Happy Birthday, Grandma!! I miss you soooo much! I know sometimes I didn't show it and I am sorry. If only I could have those times back, but the past is the past. Some day we will make it right again.
Some people still don't have brains!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Boy, what a depressing entry. Sorry, I just needed somewhere to do a brief vent. It is an entry like this one that makes me want to do what Michelle does every night.