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I CANT TAKE THIS. I MISS HIM AND I HARDLY KNOW HIM. I NEED TO SEE HIM, I NEED HIM TO BE HERE. I SHOULD HAVE SAID SOMETHING WHEN I HAD THE CHANCE. CAITLIN SAID THAT HE WAS WAITING FOR ME. THATS WHY HE HUNG AROUND, THATS WHY HE WAS FOLLOWING ME. THATS WHY HE KEPT LOOKING AT ME AND STARING AT ME. I COULD HAVE DONE SOMETHING, I COULD HAVE SAID SOMETHING AND I COMPLETELY BLEW THAT CHANCE. AND HE LIVES IN WEST STOCKBRIDGE AND NOW IM NOT GONNA SEE HIM TILL SEPTEMBER. I'LL HAVE TO SIT AROUND ALL SUMMER WAITING FOR SEPTEMBER TO COME, SO I CAN SEE HIM AT ORCHESTRA PRACTICES WHEN HE COMES TO GET JAHNNA AND COOPER. OR I'LL HAVE TO WAIT FOR THE NEXT BALLET RECITAL, AND THAT WONT BE UNTILL SEPTEMBER EITHER. I NEVER THOUGHT THAT I COULD LIKE SOMEONE THIS MUCH. IVE LIKED HIM THIS MUCH SINCE THE SECOND HE WALKED INTO THAT ROOM. THAT'S IT, IT ONLY TOOK A SECOND FOR ME TO NOTICE HIM, A SECOND FOR ME TO REALIZE THAT HE'S THE MOST BEAUTIFUL PERSON, A SECOND FOR ME TO REALIZE HOW MUCH HE MEANT TO ME. PEOPLE MUST THINK THAT IM COMPLETELY INSANE, BUT HONESTLY, I DON'T CARE. THINK WHAT YOU WILL. BUT I KNOW THAT WE ARE MEANT FOR EACH OTHER.