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so....i guess i'm happy in an odd not happy kinda way....I really like "him"......I've never been so comfortable around anyone like i am around him....(though to him i might seem really scared) but you know I am kinda scared when I think about it.....I'm afraid I'm not pretty enough (i do try to be pretty....which is hard considering the fact that I'm ugly)....I feel like I'm lame compared to him.....I end up regretting half of the things I say.....and I get envious of a girl he hangs out with a lot(i don't know if he likes her or not)......which I shouldn't because I think shes really cool......I don't even know what the hell I'm talking about anymore.....Sometmes I walk away from him thinking......"why the fuck didn't I say that" or "What was I thinking".....and then I'll look in the mirror and think "SHIT! that is fucking scary....and he saw me in this state!?"......I don't know what to think.....he's not easy to read like the other boys........he's different
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