losing money and shitting fire
i'm home from work sick..and should update but have nothing to update about. my life is boring..very boring..i have these little demons in my head that demand i stay home and watch movies or play video games or whatever as long as it doesn't involve going out. my friends are prolly really pissed at me for this...i never hang out with them. i should go out more..party..hang out..whatever..but i dunno..i think i need a new job..and a divorce...and to go to school..and about a million other things..my mind is fucked..things are going good with mylene though..i'm really really happy with her and love her alot...i just have this dejected feeling lately (lately being the past 6 mos or so) where i love being with her...but have no ambition to hang out at all...maybe i just need my own place and have people come over..that would be fine..it's just the leaving the house that's the problem..god ... am i becoming agoraphobic..not really cause i go to work and shit but still..whatever..i'm done ranting..this makes no sense..go read this instead http://www.nothingnice.com/index.shtml