life goes in weird circles.
I...haven't been sure what to put on here for a very long time. I'm not sure I even had the time. I'm not sure I even had the words.
After all, I'd planned never to write in here again the last time I wrote in there. Which is an incredibly sombering thought, given that now I'm here, and fine, and nothing's wrong with me. That kind of feeling never really wore off. It's like...something finally went my way, someone finally listened to me and life decided to be fair.
...although it took me thinking of suicide and meaning it for anything to actually happen, but even so. This is...a surreal feeling. Even nearly two months later, it feels weird.
It feels weird being around all these people that never knew. Or never will know. Or talking to my brother, who the last time I really thought about him, it was just because I wanted to steal his gun and...yes.
But christmas is here and well, I'll carry on like life meant me to, apparently. I'll go hang about with my family, and annoy Cadence and Thundereagle. Life will continue as normal. I'd like to forget this ever happened, but I don't think that's possible. As life continuing as normal feels...weird, knowing what I know. Having been where I've been.
I'll just have to see what comes of things.
*attached is a bottle of wine*
I should have possibly done this a very long time ago, but...things over took me. Thank you. Mainly, for punching and slapping me in the face for the stupid stuff I did. Even so, thank you.
Dylan.
Me and Di are coming to invade your property this week. We'll bring swords and everything and storm you from the front garden.
I shall also bring wine and some cake. For the christmas spirit and everything.
Has been a lovely christmas, I do think. Excluding all the usual things that make the world suck.