CT: Week 44 Prompt 2
2. Discuss something you're not ready for in your current relationship, and explain why.
Honestly, maybe marriage? I know everyone would assume that it's the next logical step considering the fact that we're together and about to have a baby. Of course we've never talked about marriage before, we just sort of skirt around the topic and ignore it. I think he was engaged before but it's another thing that we don't talk about. It's fine though because I'm not sure if I even want to get married, the idea makes me nervous. Not because of him, I'd be nervous of marriage to anyone. I've never been one of those girls to sit there as a child, planning her wedding out right down to the colors and the cake. Just was never important to me. I'm fine with the idea of being with someone for a long time, let's just stick with that.
The other thing I'm not sure we're ready for is the actual reality of having a baby. We're fine with me being pregnant, we're adjusting rather well to that but the reality of Morsel actually being here? I'm not sure. I'm not sure how I'll do as a mom and I think Grady is nervous about the same, well with him being a dad. He still isn't around as much, he has odd hours and so I'll be alone with the baby quite a bit. I'm only eighteen, I haven't gone to college or really experienced that much besides a lot of...loss lately. How do I know I'll be any better than my mother? My dad was a little better, he was great when I was younger but then in the last couple years since the divorce we didn’t see each other much.
Then when the stuff went down with my ex, the fighting with my mother and them having a problem with my lifestyle it all went into a downward spiral. I never got to fix things with my dad, he died two weeks ago in an accident. I still won’t talk to my mom. My uncle was really my parent but what if I’m like my parents, more like them than I thought. What if I flake because I don’t know if I can do this? Mainly by myself?
Great, I think I just freaked myself out all over again. Sorry, I’m just going to go lay down again.
Patient: Farah Barke
Partner: Grady Fletcher (gradyforhire)
wc: 390
Original Character
Honestly, maybe marriage? I know everyone would assume that it's the next logical step considering the fact that we're together and about to have a baby. Of course we've never talked about marriage before, we just sort of skirt around the topic and ignore it. I think he was engaged before but it's another thing that we don't talk about. It's fine though because I'm not sure if I even want to get married, the idea makes me nervous. Not because of him, I'd be nervous of marriage to anyone. I've never been one of those girls to sit there as a child, planning her wedding out right down to the colors and the cake. Just was never important to me. I'm fine with the idea of being with someone for a long time, let's just stick with that.
The other thing I'm not sure we're ready for is the actual reality of having a baby. We're fine with me being pregnant, we're adjusting rather well to that but the reality of Morsel actually being here? I'm not sure. I'm not sure how I'll do as a mom and I think Grady is nervous about the same, well with him being a dad. He still isn't around as much, he has odd hours and so I'll be alone with the baby quite a bit. I'm only eighteen, I haven't gone to college or really experienced that much besides a lot of...loss lately. How do I know I'll be any better than my mother? My dad was a little better, he was great when I was younger but then in the last couple years since the divorce we didn’t see each other much.
Then when the stuff went down with my ex, the fighting with my mother and them having a problem with my lifestyle it all went into a downward spiral. I never got to fix things with my dad, he died two weeks ago in an accident. I still won’t talk to my mom. My uncle was really my parent but what if I’m like my parents, more like them than I thought. What if I flake because I don’t know if I can do this? Mainly by myself?
Great, I think I just freaked myself out all over again. Sorry, I’m just going to go lay down again.
Patient: Farah Barke
Partner: Grady Fletcher (gradyforhire)
wc: 390
Original Character