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I pulled out a knife last night. So tempted to create a disaster...But I couldnt..I felt a twinge of happiness....Then I was dissapointed that I wasnt strong enough to even 'cause myself a little pain..Just a little to know I'm alive. Not that I'm feeling too much happiness..But it's so strange...I havent been this happy in ages. I feel so strange.. But yet I love it..So confusing..