Wallpaper: Dean - Fake smile

[no_ones_sleep]

I can't forget Dean's fake smile. It still upsets me, scares me, hurts me. This advice came from strangers (Eliot Ness and Frank Deveraux) who couldn't even begin to know the pain and tragedy of Dean's life. It still feels so wrong. So I probably needed to process it by making just another wallpaper

Comments

[no_ones_sleep]

Thank you for your compliment! This scene is as awful as it is awesome. I still cannot look at that scene in the episode, and I was avoiding to look at the screen when they showed a flashback in 7x13. It hurts. You found the perfect words for this scene- and I think that it's exactly that what makes us connect with the boys. There is something of ourselves in them, in their deepest despair, in the moments when they don't see a light- and yet they somehow continue, and we cling to them in hope we will also find our way along with them. And that is why I fear Dean's death so much. It would mean he can be defeated, that there is a "too much". And that just mustn't be. Never.

Because of the SuperBowl we googled the full lyrics of the US anthem, and we were surprised by how bloody and warlike it is! And I am not into politics, but I would like to know in advance who the next President is going to be. Do you think Obama has a chance again? I felt safe with him, much more so than with Bush, but of course i only get a glimpse of his actions while you get the whole...

[abeautifullie3]

You pretty much nailed it as well, the fact that they keep pushing through the despair and overwhelming odds. I see so much of myself in both brothers that it's scary and painful. I mean, the header on my journal, "I live this life because I have to." isn't just a statement for Dean. It's personal.
Really, I guess that's probably the biggest reason I got so wrapped up in this show. The supernatural aspect pulled me in, but it's how I relate to the boys that has made the show - and fandom - such on integral part of my life.

I think if you also Google the history of our national anthem, that will help give context to the lyrics. But you are correct, it's very much about the fight. I'm just disturbed that we fought so hard for those rights of freedom, only to loose sight of them.
My knowledge of politics sucks. But from what I do know, Bush ran this country into the ground. Clinton had us in a good place, and Bush fucked it all to hell. I think Obama is trying to do what he can to fix it, and I really do hope the people let him continue. It's going to take more than 4 years to fix the damage done over Bush's run.