SPN 6x06, You can´t handle the truth
YES!!!! Finally!!!
I loved that episode. Maybe because I don´t like cats very much, either...
So Lisa told Dean to get lost. Horray for the Lisa haters, but THAT was the point where my only thought was: "I HATE Sam." I always thought how dysfunctinal Dean´s and Sam´s relationship was, but it was mostly in that funny-attitude-way, like "hey look, we are so different, and you are not!" *mocks the rest of the world* But this all of a sudden became dead serious. Sam destroyed Dean´s only healthy relationship. Lisa meant help, the promise that some sort of normalcy was possible, and Sam took it from Dean by letting him being turned into a vampire for some selfish reason. Ooooh, you needed to get into the vampire´s nest, but of course, that totally justifies smashing Dean´s relationship and endangering Ben´s and Lisa´s life. And, well, Dean´s, for if Dean had drunk blood, the cure wouldn´t have worked. Man, I am so pissed right now!!! Sam and Dean have no one else besides each other, and they definitely do anything to keep it that way, and that is not cute and awe-inspiring but sick to the core. Neither of them is happy, they just spiral downward to an inevitable ending. And it has already destroyed both of them, actually. Yes, that´s so wonderful for sweet and despairing fanfictions, I see that coming. But it´s really nothing but cynical. I am shocked by the reality with which the writers hit me. And congratulations on that, too. It was an eye-opener. I won´t look at it the same.
And did you notice Dean is back to drinking?! Castiel, if I ever see you pouring another drink for Dean, I´ll pull out your feathers one by one. Do you have any concept of the word "addict", you dick?!
"I ain´t a father. I´m a killer." Is that the absolute truth?! Or just the truth in Dean´s eyes? I´m really not sure right now, have to think about it.
And I´m really not into fist fights, but the moment Dean started beating up Sam, I sat here screaming at him: "YES!!! YESYESYESYES!!!!!!!!" That was a moment of truth, were Dean didn´t choke on his feelings, where he didn´t suppress anything but heeded Lisa´s hidden advise to not keep it all in. Thank you, Lisa. For even if Sam is left without feelings, that doesn´t mean he had to lie to Dean! He could have walked straight up to his brother and told him "hey, we have a problem, I´m not myself, but the advantage is I´m fearless." Or something more subtle, yeah. But he chose not to. He chose to lie and to betray and to justify it with the greater good. (I´m sure I heard this one before on another show. And it got that two brothers killed in the end, too. Well, one of them permantly, the other can´t die.) And when Sam said that he needed help it was such a manipulation, and I am so glad Dean didn´t buy it and wasn´t persuaded into giving in again. Yay. I have such a respect for Dean right now who stood up for himself.
And of course he will probably regret it soon and torture himself over it and so on and so forth but for now I am proud of him. And I will go on despising Sam until he´s back to the truth again. That´s all I ask of him, and then we can handle the truth together.
I can handle Dean´s truth. About my own I´m not so sure. But that is another topic. Just something everyone should ask themselves- am I facing my truth, or from what truth am I trying to escape by which means?
I loved that episode. Maybe because I don´t like cats very much, either...
So Lisa told Dean to get lost. Horray for the Lisa haters, but THAT was the point where my only thought was: "I HATE Sam." I always thought how dysfunctinal Dean´s and Sam´s relationship was, but it was mostly in that funny-attitude-way, like "hey look, we are so different, and you are not!" *mocks the rest of the world* But this all of a sudden became dead serious. Sam destroyed Dean´s only healthy relationship. Lisa meant help, the promise that some sort of normalcy was possible, and Sam took it from Dean by letting him being turned into a vampire for some selfish reason. Ooooh, you needed to get into the vampire´s nest, but of course, that totally justifies smashing Dean´s relationship and endangering Ben´s and Lisa´s life. And, well, Dean´s, for if Dean had drunk blood, the cure wouldn´t have worked. Man, I am so pissed right now!!! Sam and Dean have no one else besides each other, and they definitely do anything to keep it that way, and that is not cute and awe-inspiring but sick to the core. Neither of them is happy, they just spiral downward to an inevitable ending. And it has already destroyed both of them, actually. Yes, that´s so wonderful for sweet and despairing fanfictions, I see that coming. But it´s really nothing but cynical. I am shocked by the reality with which the writers hit me. And congratulations on that, too. It was an eye-opener. I won´t look at it the same.
And did you notice Dean is back to drinking?! Castiel, if I ever see you pouring another drink for Dean, I´ll pull out your feathers one by one. Do you have any concept of the word "addict", you dick?!
"I ain´t a father. I´m a killer." Is that the absolute truth?! Or just the truth in Dean´s eyes? I´m really not sure right now, have to think about it.
And I´m really not into fist fights, but the moment Dean started beating up Sam, I sat here screaming at him: "YES!!! YESYESYESYES!!!!!!!!" That was a moment of truth, were Dean didn´t choke on his feelings, where he didn´t suppress anything but heeded Lisa´s hidden advise to not keep it all in. Thank you, Lisa. For even if Sam is left without feelings, that doesn´t mean he had to lie to Dean! He could have walked straight up to his brother and told him "hey, we have a problem, I´m not myself, but the advantage is I´m fearless." Or something more subtle, yeah. But he chose not to. He chose to lie and to betray and to justify it with the greater good. (I´m sure I heard this one before on another show. And it got that two brothers killed in the end, too. Well, one of them permantly, the other can´t die.) And when Sam said that he needed help it was such a manipulation, and I am so glad Dean didn´t buy it and wasn´t persuaded into giving in again. Yay. I have such a respect for Dean right now who stood up for himself.
And of course he will probably regret it soon and torture himself over it and so on and so forth but for now I am proud of him. And I will go on despising Sam until he´s back to the truth again. That´s all I ask of him, and then we can handle the truth together.
I can handle Dean´s truth. About my own I´m not so sure. But that is another topic. Just something everyone should ask themselves- am I facing my truth, or from what truth am I trying to escape by which means?