Heroes has been cancelled. My dreamworld hasn´t.
I am so sad. I saw it coming, but today I´m surprised by how much hope I still seemed to have had in terms of a new season- otherwise I wouldn´t feel so lost right now, would I?!
Three things are on my mind.
First: There will be no more weekly dose of my favourite drug, Peter. No more new episodes to screencap, no more waking up early in the morning and instantly going online to see if any of the fans from the US had something to report on the newest episode, no more new input to spin fanfictions around. Peter will vanish from the screen. My most beloved character is gone (well, at least that way he is reunited with Nathan). I am only gradually realising what that means. How long before I take down all the pictures of Peter from my walls?
Second: It was such a great community we had! I got to now really wonderful and talented people because we shared the same fandom. I loved discussing the development of the characters (and Peter´s haircut, yes), I was so fascinated by ideas other fans shared concerning an upconing episode or the entire season. We shared our hopes and fears. And we escaped reality and found shelter in a dreamworld that is now taken from us. And I am so afraid of losing those people because now we have nothing new to hold on to, nothing to feed us with new ideas and that way keep us united.
Third: To my own surprise I believe what Ari said. Surprised, because I still feel hope. It now is our own decision if we want to keep this dream alive. It will get harder with no new fuel to keep the fire burning, but now it is our- my- responsibility. I know I need others to help me in that, but right now there seems to be a defiant movement- like "fuck NBC, we go on sailing that ship." (Hence we are shippers.) I invested so much time and energy, I will not silently bury that. And like someone close to me said: The experience we all shared on Heroes cannot be taken from us. So I decide to cherish that and go on. Denial Part II. Hey, aren´t we experienced in that?!
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Three things are on my mind.
First: There will be no more weekly dose of my favourite drug, Peter. No more new episodes to screencap, no more waking up early in the morning and instantly going online to see if any of the fans from the US had something to report on the newest episode, no more new input to spin fanfictions around. Peter will vanish from the screen. My most beloved character is gone (well, at least that way he is reunited with Nathan). I am only gradually realising what that means. How long before I take down all the pictures of Peter from my walls?
Second: It was such a great community we had! I got to now really wonderful and talented people because we shared the same fandom. I loved discussing the development of the characters (and Peter´s haircut, yes), I was so fascinated by ideas other fans shared concerning an upconing episode or the entire season. We shared our hopes and fears. And we escaped reality and found shelter in a dreamworld that is now taken from us. And I am so afraid of losing those people because now we have nothing new to hold on to, nothing to feed us with new ideas and that way keep us united.
Third: To my own surprise I believe what Ari said. Surprised, because I still feel hope. It now is our own decision if we want to keep this dream alive. It will get harder with no new fuel to keep the fire burning, but now it is our- my- responsibility. I know I need others to help me in that, but right now there seems to be a defiant movement- like "fuck NBC, we go on sailing that ship." (Hence we are shippers.) I invested so much time and energy, I will not silently bury that. And like someone close to me said: The experience we all shared on Heroes cannot be taken from us. So I decide to cherish that and go on. Denial Part II. Hey, aren´t we experienced in that?!
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