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[no_one_does]

I sit on the porch and wait for the car to pull up.
To hear you laughing with her drives me crazy.
Then why do I sit?
You fill me with the emptyness of hope,
yet tear away at my soul to know different.
Maybe one day you'll realize all I've done for you.
Maybe.
How I stood over you while you pushed me away,
How I knew when something was wrong, always.
How I made you feel like no one else, or so you said.
Maybe.
I've been there through everything, but you don't know I'm alive.
You used to.
We used to laugh under the stars on a cold summer night.
When nothing was cold but the air.
It's funny how we pretend everything's ok.
How you lie through your beautiful mouth.
It's easier to let me be dissapointed.
Let me be.