b/c i have no life...
i had nothing to do... so i thought i'd update... nothing really special going on in my life right now... school is ending... finally... but only for awhile then college.
i did nothing in school today...took a test on stuff i DID NOT know...colored..lol...
i miss my baby. i was sitting in class today and i was thinking that i really wanted him to be here this weekend... just so we could go out. i've kinda shut myself out from everything...for multiple reasons of course... most all b/c of him... its just not fun being without him. i dont wanna go do things that we do. i want him to take me to eat and him to take me to the mall... not ne one else... i want him home so bad. the part i hate most tho is knowing that he will never come back to me... he hates it here... i hate him there....and i know he will never look for a job and a place here... i know this... i try to accept it everyday... its sad but theres nothing else for me to do. i wish he didnt think i was being such a bitch to him all the time... i just dont understand how he can go out and have fun or hang out with his friends... i guess when he does that i feel like he's forgetting about me... he never gives specifics and i never know whats going on when hes with them... its really hard for me to deal with him having friends... he lived 7 months here and i was it... it was me and him always... no one else... and now i guess i feel pushed to the side at times... i hate living this way...its not right and its not fair... we deserve to be together...
i've learned since he's been gone that i am apparently selfish...i am also jealous and self-centered...
i dont mean to be...but i wanna be with u...all the time...and its not working that way....
love knows no distance...but my heart does....
i miss you boo boo kitty witty boo boo lover honey bunches chicken butt!
i love you too... more than u'll know...more than you'll believe...
till later...
me
*~ what do you do when u can't redeem yourself..when you've ruined his life and everything else...what do you do when he dont look at you the same...what do you do when you're to blame...~*
i did nothing in school today...took a test on stuff i DID NOT know...colored..lol...
i miss my baby. i was sitting in class today and i was thinking that i really wanted him to be here this weekend... just so we could go out. i've kinda shut myself out from everything...for multiple reasons of course... most all b/c of him... its just not fun being without him. i dont wanna go do things that we do. i want him to take me to eat and him to take me to the mall... not ne one else... i want him home so bad. the part i hate most tho is knowing that he will never come back to me... he hates it here... i hate him there....and i know he will never look for a job and a place here... i know this... i try to accept it everyday... its sad but theres nothing else for me to do. i wish he didnt think i was being such a bitch to him all the time... i just dont understand how he can go out and have fun or hang out with his friends... i guess when he does that i feel like he's forgetting about me... he never gives specifics and i never know whats going on when hes with them... its really hard for me to deal with him having friends... he lived 7 months here and i was it... it was me and him always... no one else... and now i guess i feel pushed to the side at times... i hate living this way...its not right and its not fair... we deserve to be together...
i've learned since he's been gone that i am apparently selfish...i am also jealous and self-centered...
i dont mean to be...but i wanna be with u...all the time...and its not working that way....
love knows no distance...but my heart does....
i miss you boo boo kitty witty boo boo lover honey bunches chicken butt!
i love you too... more than u'll know...more than you'll believe...
till later...
me
*~ what do you do when u can't redeem yourself..when you've ruined his life and everything else...what do you do when he dont look at you the same...what do you do when you're to blame...~*