Just a bit of that passion again...
I haven't worked on art very much at all since I left school -- ok, not at all. School killed my drive for it because of the people I had to work around. I can't blame a lack of resources or materials considering the wide range of materials I have used before. However, it is a little harder when they aren't so readily available, you don't have a way to fire your ceramic pieces, or when you have to spend money for your creative media. I also haven't had much inspiration because I haven't been in the "nurturing environment" for art. Though some of my teachers discouraged my work without realizing it, some of my fellow art companions from school really boosted my inspiration and spring-boarded my ideas. I don't have that now and have been far too stressed to be able grab some kind of material and start coming up with ideas. I wish I could again. I saw an artist's website tonight and it made me want to start creating again. His depth was rich and you could see the passion in his work. I enjoyed it a lot. He is very good with design elements, making all sorts of commercial works now. He attended the School of Visual Arts in New York, which used to be my dream school. So much for dreams. I just really felt a dose of that old passion and I would love to be able to start fresh, creating things, keeping track of my progress. I intend to start collecting materials again, like I used to, so that when I do return from boot camp (which is a hurdle I have been resting all my goals behind), I will be able to really dive into my art again. I hope to begin writing down some ideas if they come to me for artwork and for writing, something else I have been neglecting but yearning to do again. I think creativity is a huge part of me that is missing now...quite significant.